This is me

6. Insecurities

//Lmaooo I wrote this chapter like a little under a year ago, how the tables have turned! yep, I dont feel this way anymore, for the most part at least. actually I think im kinda developing an eating disorder lmaooo end me. life sucks//

Insecurities suck.

I don't have that many of them and for that I am grateful. Not big ones at least.

I mean I do have a few typical ones regarding my looks, like my "ass" chin. I hate it and want it gone but I've come to terms with it for the most part.

I dont like my hands that much either and my skin is way too dry. But at least I don't have many pimples.

You see, I realize these stupid small things doesn't matter much in the big picture and that's why I don't really concern myself with them. I mean, I know I'm attractive so I don't care about the few stretch marks I have, i'm just happy I actually have quite a good ass!

I think thats the key to come to terms with things you don't like about yourself. Realize you could have it so much worse.

But actually I think theres a bigger reason why I have a quite good self-esteem and all, and thats because I have so many other things I care about.

Intelligence.

That girl over there might have natural blonde hair and all, (I've got it bleached), but I have an IQ of 137.

Call me stock up or whatever, at least I won't kill myself because of no self confidence.

Anyway, I also care a lot about my social life. As I've explained earlier, my social life bugs me and I push myself every day. I don't have time for stupid insecurities.

And my future.

My future is my biggest driving factor.

Whatever happens now doesn't really matter, EXCEPT if it destroys my possibilities in the future. This includes doing all my homework and actually understand the material really well in school. So again, no time for stupid shit.

So what really helps me, is a higher goal.

I may not have big breasts or the biggest butt or really smooth skin, but i'm ambitious.

And you bet your ass I will get somewhere in the future.