I Changed Everything In Me For Him ..

Chapter 12.

I Changed Everything In Me For Him

Chapter 12.

Josh’s P.O.V

It has been so long since I last saw Lisa, I miss her so much, I have survived for so many months which seemed like centuries I know I can wait for a little bit more. Okay I can live....

Who am I kidding? I feel like I am dying, it feels horrible, shallow and it hurts to think that every time I think about her she remains a vision and so far out of reach. I miss her smile, I miss the way she use to ruffle my hair and the times I use to tickle her and she would lie on the floor laughing and crying her ass off for me to stop.

I should call her, a thought lit up in my mind. Yes that is the best thing I can do. I started searching for my phone, god damn it where is the phone? When I found it I put my hands up in the air as if I won a trophy.

I started to type in her number but before I could even finish dialling the number I saw an incoming call from Noel. I hesitated before picking up but then the angle side of me thought that I was being bad to Lisa’s only cousin. She is sweet and really nice but I can tell that she likes me, unlucky for her I like Lisa and it will always remain that way. Also sometimes she makes me think that she is so desperate just looking at her.

But when I look at Lisa, her gaze is full of love and warmth and that is just perfect for me. I could stare at her forever not wanting anything but her in front of me.

I was so lost in my thoughts until I heard my phone ring few times, I shock my head to make my dreams fly away and hopefully reach to Lisa to make it come true.

“What’s up Noel?” I said through the phone making sure my tone wasn’t sad. I didn’t want Noel to know that I loved Lisa because I know that if she knew, she would tell her right away, I want her to hear from me  that I love her, I don’t want anybody else to tell her.

I learnt how to be happy around people because I know if Lisa was here she wouldn’t like it if I was sad all the time, it actually helped me a lot in many different situations.

“Josh something is wrong, I am scared and alone, no one is picking up there phone, please help me. Josh I need you” she responded   talking so fast, I could hear she was scared and frightened. She told me where she was.

“Noel stay where you are, I am coming to get you. Noel, can you hear me, hello Noel....Noel” shit, the phone got cut.

What in the world is going on? What is happened? Is she hurt? So many bad thoughts rushed into me, I didn’t know what to do, and I seemed to be scared myself, what if I reached there late before I can help her.

I rushed to get my car keys, I hit the streets with illegal speed, and I just hoped that no police is going to catch me.

For the first time I was doing something without thinking about Lisa.

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Driving my car at the fastest speed was surely a problem but calming myself was hard, suddenly I remembered how Lisa got beaten up, I didn’t want anything like that to happen to her cousin. I promised I would take care of her. My grip on the car wheel became harder I felt that I was losing control.

Once I finally got there I was kind of surprised because I was parking in front of an amusement park. I looked at the place and I thought to myself that this place couldn’t be harmful specially since there were lots of kids playing around and enjoying themselves.

I looked around and my eyes caught Noel, sitting on a bench her face was covered by her palms, it was totally hidden. I ran to her, I hugged her as tight as I could, I felt her body shaking because........

She was laughing?

I pulled away from her and looked at her in the most confusing look ever. I needed explanation.

Suddenly she busted saying “you actually fell for it?”She was still laughing out loud. I closed my eyes for a while to calm myself up before I do or say anything stupid “wait so you fooled me?” I asked in a calm tone but you could tell that there were traces of anger in it.

She nodded her head, and as she did I stood up and started walking back to my car, I can’t believed she just fooled me, I was about to get a heart attack for god’s sake. How could she lie to me like this? It wasn’t funny at all; I don’t see why was she laughing her ass off, what if she got hurt like Lisa... My Lisa

Before I could get in my car I felt a hand grapping me from the back, she pulled me and in matters of seconds I was facing her, to be honest I didn’t want to see her at this point of time. She showed me the exact puppy face Lisa used to make and said “I am so sorry Josh I didn’t know you would get hurt, I really didn’t know it would be that serious. You know why I did this?” she asked me, I raised one eyebrow as if to give her permission to keep on talking “I did this because I was so lonely, I don’t know anybody here, if Lisa was here she wouldn’t make me feel lonely, you are the only one I know and you usually refuse to hang out with me, am I that ugly? Maybe am so immature for you, tell me what I lack and I will surly change it but please forgive me I really didn’t mean to hurt you”

I sighed at the dumb question she asked, this proves that she was in fact immature but she did have a point she was lonely, Lisa wouldn’t like the fact that her cousin was feeling bad because she loved her so much, yes- she is pretty and reasonably mature but cant she get it? I am in love with someone else; I wished if could shout out those words in front of her. This very person happened to be her very own cousin.

“no you are not ugly, but you need to understand that doing such things is wrong, what if I went through an accident because of how fast I drove to get here”  I told her honestly, she kept on nagging on my head to go and hangout in this park.

“Please josh lets just go have fun, it’s my treat to you or better yet, it’s my apology to you” she was pleading maybe begging.

I gave up

“Okay but just as friends” I told her pointing out my index finger on her face. She nodded. Let me give her some of my time today, she is Lisa’s cousin after all, I should do this much at least.

As we walked into the amusement park, she had the biggest smile, she kept on dragging me inside the park as if I was going to run away.

Noel’s P.O.V

I got him to go out with me. Plan ‘A’ was successful but thank god I was about to lose him, maybe the plan was too immature and honestly I think it was wrong but hey who gives a damn we are out together now.

I was thinking that now I need him to fall in love with me or at least like me, even though I snapped on him inappropriately he still forgave me, I know he is meant for me. I actually have feelings for this guy, he treats me right.

I feel bad for using him but if this works then I would be relieved i would spend the rest of my life treating him. I won’t regret it, I don’t mind ending up with him till the last day of my life.

Hope all my wishes come true.