my boyish love

THE MADNESS AND SADNESS

"so?" Austin and i looked at Shane with narrowed eyes as he grinned like a lunatic the next day,"i asked her out"he says proudly,wow,Shane actually asked someone out that was big for him that too on the same day he met someone,"really? u like this Emma that much?" Austin asked surprised "Emma who?" Shane asked confused,there was dead silence among us for a few seconds, "Shane,Emma is the girl April introduced you to yesterday we assume its the same girl you asked out" i explained slowly. "oh so that was Emma,no no i didn't ask her she was quite boring to be truthful"Shane smiled apologetically "so who is this girl you asked out?" Austin asked curiously Shane grinned and held his head up dramatically before announcing proudly "Ellie woods". dead silence.

"Ellie? Ellie? out of all the people Ellie?" Austin snarled, ya i totally get why he is so snarky Ellie woods was a cheerleader ,unlike other cheerleaders who were beautifully smart she was very dumb,very talkative and never knew when to shut up,she was also the one who held all the latest gossip,she knows exactly everything about everyone's personal life and she was very proud of it,to think Shane was willing to sacrifice himself to her one would doubt if he actually hated his life that much. "why?whats wrong with her?"he asked fiercely looking at our incredulous expression he continued with a defeated voice "OK OK i know whats wrong with her but she is a nice person on the inside i swear she isn't how she projects herself OK? she is very sensitive,very nice,very funny..." Austin had reached his wits end "funny? fu..funny?"he whispered seeming to have lost his voice with rage, ya everybody knew her sense of humor was a bit off,ok nothing to be modest about, her sense of humor was completely off she was the most lamest person you would meet in your life,and i sincerely hoped she was the last of her kind i would get to meet on my life, i patted Austin slightly to calm him down and i asked Shane to actually tell us the truth as to why he was dating her out of everyone,"ok fine,it was actually her idea apparently she had the hots for me for sometime now and me being the gentleman i am i asked her out,and come on she is HOT"he finished punching in the most crucial point, ya that seemed more like Shane,more than that bluffing idiot he was trying to be before this. Austin seemed to be more convinced this explanation,"ok mate whatever,do whatever just know what you are getting your self into"he shook his head defeated.at this very moment Ellie made her grand entrance by screaming down the hallway "shanie-pie" as she ran towards Shane and launched herself at him. he was a dead man.

"so" i asked Austin as we sat down with our trays in the cafeteria,Shane seems to be a bit busy with his new sweetheart,i can only imagine how lovely it must be going,"so?" Austin drawled back,"Jessica bishop,spill now" i said firmly before starting my lunch,"ok here it goes, i have liked her since middle school,we were kind of like neighbors back then and we were very close,we spent a lot of time together and she was the prettiest in our grade so i fell for her then and now i cant seem to get up"his voice sounded sad, "so have you tried expressing it to her?"i asked unable to contain my curiosity, "yes,but she doesn't see me that way at least not anymore"he said even more sadly,"what do you mean?" i asked by now completely engrossed in this story,"well,back in middle school she liked me back but me being me screwed it up, she was waiting for me to confess first but i just didn't know how or when was the right time to do it, i made her wait too much so she moved on,she started dating nick the defender from the soccer team,although i heard they broke up before school started they still hang out,so i missed my chance"he shrugged even more sadly, "its ok man she will come around" i say consolingly,life had its moments.

should i also tell April my feelings before its too late?

 too late? its barely anytime at all what late and all are you saying?

but what if i miss my chance with her?

she doesn't even share the same feelings you have no chance in the first place to loose it

this is driving me crazy

like that isn't obvious,

i stop this two way conversation playing in my head,this is not important.at this exact moment as she passes me her scent clogs my senses,nothing seemed to be me more important than watching her.