Isabella's Diary

Dear Diary...pg 4

Dear Diary,
The moment he walked out that door, my heart just shattered into million pieces and the light inside of my body disappeared, leaving the pain behind. I wanted to let the tears fall down my cheeks but I kept them in the best that I could. I wanted to know why he walked out that door. Few seconds later, I looked down the piece of paper in front of me and a word pop out at me but I'm not sure that's why he walked out that door. I wanted to show I care but not in front of everyone. I don't why I keep feeling this way when he walks out that door or not listening. Is it love? Because I have no idea, maybe he just means so much to me, I don't know but it hurts so bad. Every time that happens, I am screaming and crying inside so no one can hear me. I hate that he's the only one that makes me feel that way, I want to get over him for good but I can't because I will always come back to him no matter what, even I don't want to. Just few months ago, it was just a crush and I told somethings about him but now it's something else. It's like a knife keeps stabbing into my heart and making me lose blood that I can barely think. I just want to run away but those eyes always make me stay then I bleed a little more. I think about him non stop like letting the fog come into my mind making me barely see my own thoughts, it's all about him even I don't want it to be. He's like my life now, no matter how hard I try to run away, he will always be there. WHY JUST WHY!?!?! It's too much for me to handle, I just want to end it.......... is that too much to ask for? If not, just accept my wish please. You don't know how much I bled or I screamed even I cried, DIDN'T YOU HEAR ME!?!?!?! I just...just...just.........CANT !?! You are just letting me die......leading me to my funeral. I will keep bleeding until you accept my wish.
                                                     -Isabella