Sleepwalker: {An Logan Henderson Fanfiction #Wattys2017}

The Dream

💋Chapter One💋 

"Logan.."

I slightly bit my bottom lip, taking an glance into her dimmed hazelnut eyes. Her lips parted as she gave me one more innocent stare, before pushing her lips against mines again.

I closed my eyes, feeling her hands glide up my back. My hands made their way towards hers. Fingers spreading, I held her tight; bringing her body closer towards mines.

She bit my lip, asking for entrance. I slowly part my lips, from the kiss as I could feel her cold, but tasteful tongue, enter inside my mouth. The way her tongue moved..

The way her lips tasted.... An flash of sweet coconut, with an hint of passion and eagerness.

I had to pull away, for a breath. I sat both of my hands of her face and pulled away from those candies, I call lips.

I laid down, back first, on my nearest couch. She admittedly jumped into my lap, placing my hands where she wanted them to be. She swept her hair, to her right, bending forwards towards me.

My lips brushed against the skin of her neck as an great moan, released from her lips.

"I'm so sorry that I had an affair with you, Logan."

She breathed.

"If I was just an little more faithful to you, I will still be with you. I would be happy and won't have you acting like this."

I pulled away from her, again. Hearing her saying that, made my heart tear. Just remembering the heart break and betrayal, from all of it, was something indeed too ugly to look upon.

Caressing her soft blonde hair, I responded,

"Its the past, Joanna. The only thing that matters is that you are here with me, now."

"Oh Logan,"

She smiled.

"I'll miss you. Stay strong, please. Me leaving, should only be treated as an good thing. I don't want you, to be depressed. I want you, to be happy."

"But Joanna, I am."

"No, Logan. Unfortunately this time, will be my last. I love you and always remember, stay happy. Don't doubt yourself. You're smarter than that. Always remember that."

"Joanna..wait."

"Goodbye Logan."

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Logan quickly rose, from his peaceful, but confusing dream. Panting, he gave his small room an look around. It was all the same. The same way he had left it. The room was lighted a bit, from the static of his large television screen.

He turned towards his right, to see his girlfriend, cuddling with her stuffed Dalmatian toy. Her messy brunette hair, laid everywhere as her breaths, connected with the Dalmatian's face.

To his left side of him, was his large glass window, showing the most beauitfuless Minnesota view. Most of the lights were an bright shade of yellow, red, and blue. However, the others were an dimmed shaded color of orange and tannish brown.

Logan silently crept out of his bed, avoiding being heard. If Katyln would have heard his attempt to leave, she would be highly cautious and Logan didn't want that. His small pale feet touched the cold wooden-styled floor. He carefully moved the cover, off of his lap and successfully made his way, towards his kitchen.

...

One shot for the pain..

Logan quickly tossed the liquid poison, down his throat. He took an pause, listening out for Katyln. Since he couldn't hear any commotion upstairs, he poured himself another shot.

Second shot for that dream...

That second one burned his throat; of the thought of that dreadful memory. This was the twelfth time, in the past two to three weeks that he had that kind of dream and he couldn't figure out why it was haunting him, like this.

He took an glance, at the nearest clock he could find. With the clock reading four thirty am, he poured himself another shot. This time, with his hands terribly shaking.

He didn't understand why all of this, was taking an effect on him? For all he knew, he was supposed to be mad. Pissed even, but then again, he wasn't. He was depressed. More described, as shattered.

Why was his mind playing tricks on him? Why was his body craving, something that was long gone? Something that hurted his heart and made him feel this way? Most of all, why was he dreaming about something like that, when he couldn't even play it along with his girlfriend? The girl he assumed, to love?

Third shot for forgetting it all...

As Logan drank from the small shot glass, his mind was tired, but his heart was fed up. He had found himself another girl, to help him forget about his pasted previous heart break. But instead, he was dreaming of his ex. Her kissing him. Holding him. Touching and cursing him. Telling him something that she should have told him, when she was still alive. But the thing that still taunted Logan today was, why was his body feeling for his ex, when he had an whole girlfriend sleeping next to him? And why did he enjoy it, so much?

Logan tipped the whole bottle forwards, drowning himself in his own sorrows. He wanted all of this to end. He wanted his life, to be better. But the one thing he wanted so deeply was, his seductive dreams of his ex, to all disappear. And maybe, just maybe, his life would be much better. And if it gets better, he would finally have peace, knowing that his mind won't have to worry him about Joanna because Katyln was his life now. It was time for Logan to look forward and continue his life, the way he wanted. To finally get his doctrine diploma and be the best boyfriend he could be, for Katyln. Katyln needed him, but Logan needed Katyln more. And that was something Logan promised, to himself and to Katyln. That no matter what happens or what life has to throw at them, Logan was going to be there for Katyln and he was going to do whatever it took to keep her happy.

Logan closed the bottle and made his way upstairs, knowing how good and well his sleep was going to be. And the best part about it was that he was determined, that he wasn't going to dream about Joanna anymore.

She was only just a dream and Logan wanted it to stay that way...

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