It's All Ready Written

I Will Write!

I will write, I will no longer hold myself back! I will write run-on sentences and put comas where I want to put them. I will write with passion and write just as I speak. If I am not grammatically correct and my punctuation is not where it should be and it bothers you...Then please do not read what I write. If I want an exclamation mark here and not there, than I shall do so. I speak with passion and excitement and I have the longest sentences and sometimes I do not take a breath to finish and I don't not pause where one might think it is necessary. My stories are full of interest and passion, excitement and honesty. They are funny and some sad, they make you curious and wonder if this is truly a life lived. I have dated men and women, have children that I adore and have pissed off greatly, I tried drugs, smoked pot, drink. I have run with the wealthy and the poor alike. I have worked my calling and seen things that are unbelievable. I have loved and been loved. I have taught and I have been a student. I have lived life to its fullest and I have fallen into a deep depression and slept and slept and slept. I have been through a midlife crisis, menopause, I have been fat and I have been skinny. I have been with my sweet sister as she passed to the next life, watch my parents grow old and my children get older, my grandson grow and I am growing older too and I am not finished yet.

Am very bored this season of life. Although I enjoy living with my mother and I am very thankful I was here to help her with Daddy and while Sally passed. I just keep feeling there is something more. There's got to be. But what the hell is it? I search daily for different job opportunities and houses for rent nothing comes up that appeals to me. I wish I would write more but I don't make a living at this. I often ask God what is next something has to be coming. I just want to take off for a month or two to see what is out there but there is always something that keeps me from leaving. Mainly money... I now have a car payment, I am being sued for a six hundred dollar hospital bill that I don't feel like I should have to pay. I went to the emergency room for severe pain in my right leg a couple of days after a vein procedure and the Dr. that needed to come to do the sonogram would not come because it was after 8:00 pm. Now the bill is up to seven hundred something because of the court cost and interest.

I just started a new job that I am really good at but it is quite the head game. I worked the same job for the last year just a different company. But it is good money just a lot of bullshit to earn it. . I am tired, what's next?

I own my house in Jonesborough I have a vision of how to create each room but I do not know how to do it alone and I've prayed for someone to show up to help but they have not come. I don't really want to live in Jonesborough right now anyway, so what is next?

Life does not wait around for you. If you sit still it can pass you by forever. It's out there something is waiting for me to discover it, learn it, create it. I feel it. But I don't know what the hell it is. I only planned on raising the children, being a wife. Well the children are raised, they are educated, responsible adults, and they don't need me. I did my job and I did it well.

I have learned to love myself, enjoy time alone and I will not allow abuse in any form or fashion. This season it is about love and allowing happiness, travel, new discoveries and adventure. It is time to live this season of life!

LEAP AND THE NET WILL APPEAR AND THE MONEY WILL COME!!