Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 15

“Give it a chance…Girl one mo gin.”

(Sweets POV)

As much as I wanted Chris right then and there I knew it was best to stop. Plus I didn’t want to disrespect his Auntie’s house. I really wanted to see how things go especially with him being here for a while and me starting this promo tour with Ciara. I decided to climb into my bed and check my phone. I hadn’t thought about it all day so I had 10 missed calls, 11 texts and 3 voicemails.

 4 of the calls and 2 voicemails were from Mommi. She wanted me to know her flight got delayed and she would be in VA this evening plus she just had to sing me Happy Birthday. 1 call and 3 texts were from La Shay wishing me a Happy Birthday. 1 call was from TJ, 1 call from Keisha, 1 call from Janina my dancer friend then 1 from Raul...

WHAT THE HELL?

He also text me 3 damn times and I swear he needed to let go! I’m done and now I was with Chris so I have nothing else to say to him! I got a birthday text from Barry, my best friend and Brother from LA. I missed him so much and I always told him that he needed to come to NY with me. He was my other Wonder Twin and I couldn’t wait for him to meet Chris cause I had told Barry all about him. After roasting me for Chris being younger than I was he finally said “I got to meet lil dude…Make sure he good for my Sis.” and that made me so happy. He was always over protective and I loved him for it. I got a text from CiCi, Shad, Miss Teresa, O and Lisa, my manager.

I decided I was going to answer everybody in the morning because I knew the texts were gonna start pouring in if I didn't wait. I was dead tired and it was already close to 2 am so I laid down. Around 3:30 I heard footsteps come through the living room and whispers. I opened my eyes to see Keeis, Aaron, Robb and Gonzo sneaking in. I pretended to be sleep as they snuck into their rooms so I giggled to myself and quickly fell back to sleep. Around 4 I got woke up to Chris asking me if I was awake.

“Chris...What you doing?” I asked rubbing my eyes.

“Come with me.” He said whispering.

“Where we goin?” I asked getting up out the bed.

“You’ll see…Just be quiet.” He whispered putting his finger up to his lips then grabbing my blanket.

We went outside and he had me climb up on to the roof of the house. When he finally climbed up he the grabbed my hand and walked me to the middle of the roof laying down the blanket.

“Chris why are we up here?” I asked looking at him confused.

“Look up.” He said pointing to the beautiful night sky that was filled with bright stars.

“Ooo…It’s so beautiful.” I said gazing up as I sat down.

My favorite...

“I know huh.” He said sitting next to me and putting his arm around me.

I had flashes of earlier when we were in his room and I instantly got turned on but I decided to see what he was gonna do first.

“I love comin up here when I’m tryna clear my mind.” He said staring up like he was in a trance.

“I can see why… It's so peaceful.” I said gazing as well for a few minutes.

“Do you love me?” He asked out of nowhere.

“Yes.” I said without even thinking twice.

“Good cause I love you too…A lot.” He said still looking up so I just smiled.

We sat there talking about random things like astrology, destiny and aliens. We laughed so hard because we both believed they were real! After quite a few long passionate kisses we soon got quiet and continued look up getting lost in our thoughts.

“Can you tell me about Karl now?” He asked looking at me with a serious face.

I froze from the mention of THAT name again and it felt like my blood turned to ice. Why? Why does he want to know? I know I promised him I would tell him but I couldn’t find the words. He held me tighter as if to encourage me that it was ok so I decided it was time.

“Um…Ok…He was Mommi's Ex Husband and he is in prison for...For raping me almost every day from 3 days after I turned 12 til I was 13 and finally told on him. He took away what little innocence I had left.” I said with no emotion.

I could tell his heart broke for me and that it also made him angry because he closed his eyes clenching his jaw and started shaking his head. He didn’t speak he just held me tighter like he was trying to help me make any memory of it go away. I didn’t want him to know because I had never told any of my boyfriends only people that I knew I could trust and it was hard to trust anybody anymore but Mommi who went crazy trying stab Karl once she pulled up to the house after work and found out why his beat down body was laid out in the driveway but the cops came stopping her.

I never wanted to trust again til I met Chris...

“I hated him and wanted him to die for a looong time then I just blocked it out…But the nightmares started and  never stop.” I continued after a long pause. “You know the crazy part is I thought I deserved it the whole time it was happening because of being molested by my older boy and girl cousins when I was like 5.” I said sadly.

"What the hell man...This shit ain't right!" Chris said pissed off more for me but I continued.

“My girl cousin always told me nobody would care if I told because I wasn’t good for nothing but to be used and thrown away...Bette caught them tho and beat their asses then told Mommi...But when I couldn't fight Karl off and he said he would kill Mommi if I told I just accepted that it had to be true that I really was nothing because it was happening again so I kept my mouth shut…He hurt me so bad in every way he could because he said Mommi treated me like I was her everything and not him so he wanted me to know that I wasn't special I was just something to be used whenever he wanted to...I wanted to die so ba...” I stopped as the tears finally came. Just then Chris startled me when he sat up and pulled me up facing him.

“No! Uh uh…You didn’t deserve any of it you hear me? And had I been around back then I would be in juvie right now cause he would be dead I don't care! I will never let anybody hurt you like that again Sweets…EVER!” Chris said with so much passion in his words looking into my eyes so I just nodded.

“I mean that Sweets…I will protect you no matter what I promise…I-LOVE-YOU ok? So it's not true because you are special and I will show you.” He said firmly.

“I love you too Chris.” Was all I could say trying to hold back the tears.

“Don’t...Don't do that don’t cry…They're not worth anymore of your tears.” He said hugging me tight.

I felt so calm in his arms and I really wanted to believe everything he said but my heart and mind wouldn’t let me yet.

I just needed time

Time to trust his love…