Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 19

“I can tell I want you right here next to me…Tho you be raising hell…Time and time again I say…I got nothing but love for ya baby”

 

(Sweets POV)

I couldn’t believe that I had already spent two weeks in VA. The night I left was so hard and special. Chris took me to the movies with all of his cousins of course. I have to admit I love them all even tho we almost got into so much trouble. I see why Chris was so close to them. We had so much fun that night water ballooning houses, got chased by some dogs and had to hide from the police cause we were out pass curfew.

So much fun.

Chris was so sad when I got on the plane to leave. He said that he would be in New York in a month but that was too long. This was the reason I didn’t want to push the issue of getting together and it is definitely why I didn’t want us to sleep together. Chris didn’t realize that that would open up so many feelings I don’t think he was ready for. I know I wasn’t ready for them.

I wasn’t expecting us to go as far as we did already even tho it was so good but this distance was really going to be a test. I needed to see if he was serious about being with me or just horny! We made sure to talk almost all day long, if we weren’t talking we were texting. It felt good to know I was on his mind all the time. I spent my time rehearsing for Ciara’s promo tour and did 3 shows with Omari. They were so fun cause I was doing what I loved. But I really missed Chris.

By July I had started the promo tour with CiCi and was trying hard to make sure that Chris knew I was not forgetting about him and that he didn’t have to worry about the guys that I was around. But that was frustrating too. It was definitely weighing hard on my heart whether to just let him go. Did I want to do that? No but I don’t want to hurt him.

“Hey you.” I said into the phone,

“What up.” Chris said dryly

“Just got to my room…What's wrong?” I asked concerned

“I just miss you…A LOT!” He said as I could hear him moving around.

“I know and I miss you too…I just keep thinking about how much fun we would be having right now.” I said laying on my bed.

“Yeah but we would be doing a lot more than that…” He mumbled.

“What?” I said trying to hear him.

“Huh?” He said innocently

“That’s all you think about isn't it?” I asked getting agitated.

“Naw Shorty but...Well yeah…Can you blame me? I miss my girlfriend! I wanna be able to hold you and kiss you…Not just talk on the damn phone this shit sucks.” He admitted sounding frustrated.

“Chris I know but could you stop already! I feel bad enough…Hell I want to do all of that too but what am I supposed to do?” I asked irritated.

“Wait…Why you yellin?” He fired sounding angry.

“I just got a lot on my mind and you make me feel bad every time I talk to you like I’m ruining your life!” I said loudly.

“Aye Aye…Look you can stop with all that yellin and ain't nobody said you were ruining nothing! I was just tellin you how I felt…Man you know what bye!” He said hanging up. I looked at the phone: Call Ended.

I called back: Voicemail

Called again: Voicemail

I was in shock and pissed cause I know I had never been such a bitch towards him but I can’t believe that he hung up in my face! I got up and started pacing. I’m not calling him back...I’m not calling him back I said out loud. And after 20 minutes of sitting and waiting to see if he would call back I decided to take a shower. Once I got out the shower I checked my phone: Nothing.

SHIT!

I guess I really pissed him off. I didn’t know what to do cause we had never had a argument like this EVER but I was too stubborn to make another call. I mean yes I was wrong for yelling at him but he doesn’t realize how hard it is being on the road every night when my heart, mind and body want to be somewhere else.

IT’S VERY HARD!

After another 2 hours passed I began to cry. What if he leaves me or cheats on me? He does have girls throwing themselves at him all the time. Or what if he calls that bitch MONIQUE! I then jumped when my phone rang but it wasn’t him so I cried harder. God Helena you’re always fucking up I thought to myself. Just then my phone rang again: My Boo so I quickly picked up.

“Hello?” I said softly trying hard not to sound like I was crying.

“Hello.” He said sighing softly.

“I’m here.” I said trying to find the words.

“Um…Look I’m sorry for hangin up on you and makin you feel bad. I know this ain't easy but I'm really tryin…I just get frustrated but I didn’t realize I was making you feel worse.” He explained.

“No no..It’s ok. I shouldn’t have yelled at you…You didn’t deserve that and I’m so sorry.” I said startng to cry again.

“Why you cryin?” He asked warmly.

“Because I thought we were done…I love you Chris and I don’t want to mess this up.” I said crying harder.

“Stop that…Please stop Baby…Please.” He said sighing into the phone. “I just needed to chill out fo a minute because I dont want us arguin and you're 2000 miles away. I don’t ever want us to argue aight. I seen enough of that wit my Momma.” He said firmly.

“I just got scared…I don’t want to lose you.” I said wiping my face.

“You're not…I ain't lettin something like this break us up because I don’t want to lose you either ok?” He said sighing again. “I need you...”

Those 3 words, I NEED YOU, made me warm all over.

“I need you too Chris…More than you know.” I said into the phone.

“Good…Now go blow your nose. You prolly blowin snot bubbles and errythang.” He said making me laugh.

“You’re so stupid.” I said laughing and going to the bathroom.

“Can’t have my shawty’s face wit dried up ashy tear marks…Just all dried up and down ya face!” He said laughing.

“You are a mess!” I said laughing harder.

“I know…So you cool now?” He asked warmly.

“Yes I’m cool…Silly.” I said laughing a little.

“Aight well I'm bout to smash this McDonald’s Momma got me and you call me later if you’re still up ok?” He asked.

“Ok...I love you.” I said smiling.

“I love you too...Talk to you in a minute Beautiful.” He said warmly into the phone.

“Ok.” I said hanging up.

So glad he called…