Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 25

“I enjoy you I never want to see you leave girl…you make my life so complete.”

(Sweets POV)

What did I do that for? Why did I say all that stuff? My head was spinning with all these thoughts! I ran to the room and grabbed my phone and tried calling him over and over. This was not how our first time was supposed to go! HELENA WHAT ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF? I yelled out loud at myself as I paced. This was supposed to be special! So what is it?

HURT

That’s what I was so afraid of. I didn’t want to give myself over to another person that could hurt me again. I didn’t want to end up hating Chris but instead I made him hate me. Then I realized I did say those things to push him away. I just got this weird feeling that came over me that made me want to end things as soon as possible but the truth is I’m in love with Chris and knowing that he waited for me...Made me love him more!

I tried calling him 3 more times and he didn’t answer so I just crumpled into a ball on the floor and cried. After what seemed like forever I finally picked myself up off the floor and looked at the clock: 1:50 am.

I decided to go take a shower to wash away this bittersweet night. When I was finished I came out the bathroom to a shape in my window! I almost fell over my chair trying to get to my phone. Just then I looked down and my phone was lighting up: B.

“Hello.” I whispered into the phone and shaking.

“Why you whisperin?” He questioned.

“Because I just got out the shower and there is someone outside my window. I’m scared Chris!” I said grabbing the trophy off my bookshelf.

“Well...Are they waving?” He asked chuckling.

“Are they wav-“ Just then the shadow started waving. “Wait is that you?” I asked irritated because I was just scared stiff.

“Yeah open up please.” He laughed into the phone.

“Oh My God that’s not funny…I was scared as hell!” I said going over to the window and letting him in.

“Well I been calling you since I left my house but you wasn’t answerin so I came up the escape.” He laughed some more. “You really scared…You shakin.” He said walking over to me and hugging me tight.

“What do you expect? Don’t ever do that again!” I said smiling up at him and hitting his chest.

“Ok...Ok!” He said laughing and still holding on to me as I then I realized I was still in my towel and my hair was wet.

“Um you're gonna get wet.” I said trying to back up.

“It’s cool…Look I’m sorry about blowin up earlier I just didn’t understand why you were tryin to push me away…But I get it now.” He said making me sit down next to him on the bed.

“Chris I just get scared you know and most of the time I don’t even know that I’m even being like that.” I said.

“I get scared too…It seems like the people that are the closest to me always hurt or leave me…So I get it.” He said holding my hand tighter. “I just want for you to give me a chance...Give us a real chance you know.”

“I will…I really will. So who hurt you?” I asked squeezing his hand.

“Man I have had so many that it’s like a movie.” He said scratching uncomfortably.

“You know you can talk to me.” I said calmly.

“Yeah I know…It’s just shit like my Dad leaving and my Step-Dad being an evil asshole…Seeing my mom struggle to take care of me and my sister and get hurt. Shit like that….I went through a lot growing up.” He said in soft tone.

“So what happened with your Dad?” I said encouraging him to continue.

He went on to tell me the story of how his Dad and Mom didn’t work out when he was really little. His Dad was around but not like he would like and could only help Mama J out as much as he could financially. My heart broke for him. But I was moved to tears when he started to tell me all the things he went through with his Step Dad being so evil and abusive to his Mom. I can’t believe he had been through any of this because he hid it so well. How could anybody hurt Mama J like that was unthinkable and I had a new found love for her strength to survive and take care of her kids the best she could. Then I realized that Chris’s light heartedness and funny personality was there to cover up all the dark pain and anger deep down. I understood because I did the same thing with my sarcasm, quick tongue and being so quick to fight. It was our way of hiding our hurt.

Our only defense...

“Yeah I used to be so scared at night that I didn’t want to get up so I would pee in the bed….Ha! That’s why Auntie call me Peedy. I used to be embarrassed but hey welcome to my life!” He said laughing lightly. “That’s why I can’t wait to get this album done and out because I’m gonna do everything I can to make sure my Momma and my family are straight forever.”

“You have such a big heart and it’s all gonna pay off…But who is gonna make sure you're straight forever?” I asked laying my head on his shoulder.

After a long pause he said “You are. I’m never letting you leave my side no matter what…I gave you my heart and I meant that so anything I do you gonna be apart of it…I’m serious.” He said putting his arm around me.

I looked up at him then to the clock: 3:30 am.

“Chris don’t you need to go before Tina or Mama realize you’re not there.” I said pulling my now damp towel tighter and getting up.

“I don’t care bout that. I want to sleep next to you.” He said standing over me. “Even with everything that happened this was the best night of my life for real Sweets...But um...It’s me and you right?” He asked looking in my eyes.

“Yes...Forever.” I said smiling as he leaned down to kiss me.

That’s when I knew my life was about to change.

Our lives….