Texting || H.S (HIATUS)

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Eryna's P.O.V

My alarm screamed loudly a random sound, forcing me to wake up.I groaned in frustration.Today was just another same day,same school,same pity me.As usual,my parents was not here so I used to be alone.They trust me enough to let me be home alone. It's not like I'm going to throw a party.

They are quite busy with their work but kind enough to always bank in some money for me.I have an hour to get ready to school.I slipped down my pijama when I'm in the shower.I opened the shower and let the cold water ran down my body.I washed myself with a black orchid soap scent.My favourite.

After I finished showering,I dried myself with a soft black towel. I went to my closet aand took a oversized sweatshirt and a black leggings.As I was about to wear my sweatshirt,I saw a reflection of myself in the mirror.I looked at my cut in the stomach. I can't help but think how helpless I am. People made me do this.They made me feel I need to do this.It is a release of pain but let me tell you.Its not worth it to cut. But here I am stuck with cut problem.

I shook of my thoughts and quickly put on my outfit. I comb gently my brunette hair and put them in a natural wavy look.I took another glance at myself. Am I ugly? I wondering by myself.

I better get going now.I grabbed my car's keys and walked out to my car.I locked the door behind me and went straight to the garage.I threw my bag in the passenger seat and leave my compound.

As I arrived in the school area,I could people sent me disgusting glares like I'm some type of whore.I don't let the glares get to me because I'm used to it.All I could do was just smile and ignore it.I parked my car at my usual place and stepped out of my car.I released a heavy breath telling myself everything is going to be alright. I walked through the hall to my class for my first period.

"The nerd is here!" Someone hollered and snatched my bag.

"Give me back my bag..."I plead quietly.There were guys surrounding me like I'm some type of animal.

"What did you say? I can't hear you bitch!" He laughed along with his stupid friends.I knew him. His name is Max and he's a football leader a.k.a. my bully's since I could remember

"I said..I want my bag!"I said while raising my voice.

"You bitch!Don't raise your fucking voice at me!'He pushed me away harshly and ended up on my knees as I hit the locker.

"Now be a good girl nerdie and ask politely for your little bag."He lifted up my chin put a hard pressure on it.My eyes was all teary but I tried to keep it in its place.Why do I need to get through this same damn thing everyday. I'm tired being pushed around. I'm not going to please.Not today. I slowly stood up and fastly pulled my bag from his filthy hand.

"I- I'm not going to ask!This is m- my bag!If- if you don't mind I have class to attend "I stuttered but try to maintain the calm and cold voice.Before I walked away,I earned myself a slap across my face.That will definitely left marks.I knocked in my class door and Mrs Anderson opened it for me.

"I'm sorry I'm late." I looked down on my shoes, frightened to look up.I heard Mrs Anderson sighed.

"It's alright Eryna..since this was your very first time come in late I won't give you detention.Go take a seat."she said and I nodded,slowly made my way to my seat.

When it comes to the lunch time.I headed straight to the library to eat there.I took my food with me so I didn't need to wait in the long line at the cafeteria. Actually we are not allowed to eat in the library but the librarian let me because I'm always here anyway.

I pushed the library door and made a small usual wave to the librarian. The library was very quiet since no one was here during the lunch break. It's always me and I love that. I love being here surrounded by amazing and magical book. Nobody knows what it's hold not until you read it of course. I honestly hate to read those lovey dovey story it's a lie. Everything seems so perfect with the happily ever after. I hate reading it because I wish I have those kind of lifestyle. But everybody knows it's not going to happen to me,at least.