i know i take a while to open up
but at least i do in the end
i always tell you
but you dont give a fuck enough about me, yourself or even our relationship to at least tell me whats wrong so i can fix it
and dont act like im just ignorant, like i cant tell when there is something wrong
because i know
OF COURSE i know
its the same as how you know when im upset
you dont tell me anything and its becoming a serious problem because how do you expect me to change something so that it wont make you feel the way you do now again?
you're meant to be my girlfriend
we arent just friends
i appreciate that you don't want to make me sad or some shit
but just like you, it makes me more unhappy knowing i cant do a single thing about it because YOU DONT TELL ME.
you say you're fine
and if you are fine, why would you act in a way different to how you normally are?
to try and make me feel like i know that you're not okay and feel like i cant do anything?
im seriously starting to believe that you do not want this relationship and that you're purposely trying to push me away
and if you're reading this now and that is the case just fucking break up with me already
and im sorry if im caring too much
or being too intense
or being too intimidating or whatever the fuck it is that makes you think oh i wont tell him
im sorry for that
but i am not just going to drop it when i can clearly tell
and if im wrong, if im truly wrong, and you were just changing the way you normally are to make me think that theres something wrong then shame on you and dont even bother trying to twist it like im making you out to be like that, i am just saying if thats what you were doing from a different perspective truly shame on you
because it just really boils down to the fact that to everybody now even including you, i am a joke, and i am somebody to be taken advantage of.
