"Us" again?

What a good way to start the morning..

Loving someone isn't always easy. It have thousands of emotions that when you're alone, you THINK about it. When you think, you REMEMBER about it. When you remember, YOU FEEL PAIN from it. When you feel pain, YOU CRY because of it and when you cry, you CAN'T STOP. It's like a life cycle for Lillian, repeating and repeating throughout her life time until maybe one day she will finally decide to move on.... Or will she? Now lets move on to Lillian's opinion on loving someone and how she went through the difficulties of "love" to learn and understand that loving someone is 10x painful than she thought it would be.

It was 7:12 a.m. In the morning. The sun was glowing and the birds were chirping. As you know my name is Lillian, Lillian Newman. I am a 15 y/o sophomore at Honor State High and trust me my life not just any life... It's a life like is kept on pause. I sat up and rubbed my eyes thinking "hope today is gonna be a good day". I got up and did my every day morning routine and ran down stairs into the kitchen and grab a juice out of the fridge and rushed outside the front door since my mom was rushing me to hurry up or I'll be late for school....moms these days. It was about 8:00 when I left the house.

My first class which is my homeroom starts at 9:00 so I don't know what's all the rushing about, but my mom gets very aggravated when we don't get there by 8:30. I got into the car and sat in the passengers seat. But as I put my backpack in the back seat my mom voice start to fill the car as usual.

" Lillian buckle your seat belt!!" My mom yelled. "Mom I'm not a little kid anymore, you don't have to remind me!" I yelled back. "It's for your safety, what do you expect a mom would do when they don't see their children not being safe!??!" "Mom, I'm not stupid!! I was about to buckle my seat belt until you start yelling at me!! Why can't I have a mom that is not so strict like you!! All of my friends' mom are not like you!"

"DON'T TALK BACK TO ME KIDDO!! I'm you're mom, not you're friends where you can yell at them all you want!!!" My mom said driving and focusing on the road. " ITS NOT CALLED TALKING BACK, ITS CALL EXPLAINING!! AND WHAT KIND OF MOM WHO DON'T SPEND TIME WITH HER DAUGHTER WHEN SHE'S NOT AT SCHOOL AND THEN WHEN HER DAUGHTER IS AT SCHOOL SHE YELLS AT HER FOR NOT SPENDING TIME WITH HER MOM!???!?" I yelled back. "Lillian I hate that stubbornness of yours!! So you better stop right now, I'm trying to focus on the road!!" She always says that when she can't talk back to me.

Just as we got to the school, I immediately open the door and slammed it. I just couldn't stand her ridiculously annoying fucking attitude! Plus I was late for school too. Great...

I quickly gather my stuff and went to class. Trying to get away with it and going to my seat. I walked quietly to my seat as quickly as possible, but with my science teacher there is no way getting away with it without an explanation. "Ms. Lillian, what's with you and your tartiness? Huh?" Mrs. Lanaro said while getting the materials ready for the science experiment today.

"Uhh..well.. It's because my mom was taking too long at the gas station since she was talking to one of her old friend..." You lied. "Oh.. Well I guess that wouldn't be called your fault right?" She said smiling. "Just take seat... Your just in for the experiment." Damn... This women's attitude keeps on changing... Yesterday she was just yelling at the whole class.. Now she all nice... Well I guess someone is on her happy pills..