What I Wanted (Not Edited)

Chapter 1

It was the day before school was about to start, I knew I wasn't the type of girl to be popular, but you still always dream about it. You dream about belonging, people wanting to know who you are or even giving you a second glance. I wasn't the prettiest girl, nor the smartest. I was just a basic girl in her everyday life.

My family had its issues but it seemed to be the trend around this small town. It made me think  that I was better off alone. But maybe that's just what I told myself to make me feel better about being alone since I was in gr 12 and never had my first date or even first kiss.
Some how I never found anyone worth trusting.

Like every year I was convincing myself that this year would be different that the guy i liked would finally notice me, or talk to me. I wondered if my friends have changed or if they were the same old people I put up with mainly because i dident want to be utterly alone. Somehow I think they knew this because whenever something when wrong it was my fault I got so used to it I dident even care anymore. I would text I'm sorry and go back to playing my game and tell them what they wanted to here. Whenever I proved them wrong they would bring up something else to change it back to being my fault. But they were safe and I knew what to expect from them and I guess I can take it it's only one year till college somewhere far far away.
The thought of that made me smile, I was packing all my stuff when my cat jumped up on the bed, and sat on my notebook.
" come on boots I need that," I say.
She looks at me playfully swatting her tail back and forth, trying to tempt my playful side.
I roll my eyes and grab her stuffed animal and tossed it at her, she begins bitting into it and raking her claws down the  stuffy's stomach and rolled off the bed.
She hit the floor with a "meeeowe" and ran off.
I decided to go for a walk in the forest across my street it was my calm place and it would soon get cold and the leaves would change. That was the best time, they would turn the most beautiful shades of gold orange red and yellow. It also was the time of year if are lucky you could see some deer in the clearings. I walked along the path avoiding the branches and fallen logs, I noticed some paw prints in the sand, they were pretty masive, Someone must have been walking there dog. I knew that there was nothing bigger then a coyote indigenous to the area so it wasent a big deal walking at night, just make sure your animals are inside. I continued all the way to the campground and sat Down by the river it was called the old Asable channel and the water was so calm and still, you could look at the water it was so clear you could see the fish swimming in and out of the weeds.
"Snap" I heard a twig break and I whip around but nothing is there. I look around nothing is moving there is no sound even the birds stop cheeping. That can't be good, I get a nervous feeling rising in my chest and decide to get up and leave.
I begin walking but the paranoia or the thought of being stalked was still there. So I grab a decent size stick and start using it as a walking cane. If something dose happen now I have a weapon, but It was probably a bird or a squirrel. Yeah it was definitely a squirrel. But on the off chance it wasent I got a stick and it better be afraid. It could be a coyote, but it's daylight, what's the chances of that.
Half way home I start to settle down when on the ridge I think I see something it looked pure black like a dog but much bigger, definitely bigger then a coyote. I freeze is there really something there? I blink to try and focas my eyes better and it's gone. I quicken my pace I'm definitely seeing things. Yep I'm definitely delusional add that to the list of all my shortcomings.

I got out and I was so relieved, I dident die. It was all the stick, thank you stick for my life. I think as I toss it back into the bush. I cross the highway and head black to my house where my dad was waiting for me.

"Hey dad,"  I say
"So missy did you forget to do your laundry?" I frown I know I forgot to do my laundry. But I almost died 5 minutes ago so I'm going to take my time doing it. " yes..." I reply sadly.

" then go do it."

I sigh and head down stairs... slowly.

I put my music on and bargain dancing around the bacment folding laundry. I took the towel and used it like a scarf twirling around. I couldent help but think if someone saw this I would have to shoot my self. Honestly it was some of the most fun I have and it's great for helping deal with stuff. Like Meredith from graze always says dance it out.
As I was jamming out I caught a glimpse of something. it almost looked like grey eyes for a second in the window but by the time I turned around they were gone... and then my dog started barking, she's an outside dog but barks at anything that moved when it gets dark. It's probably someone out for a walk, I roll my eyes and go back to finishing my laundry. But I decide against dancing so instead I start singing.
"I've been staring at the edge of the water for as long as I can remember
Never really knowing..."