Is This Destiny 👩

Introduction

I'm A weird girl from Pakistan..
I live in Islamabad (the capital of pak)
I'm 17 years old
Height:5/4
Well I'm a quite Moody girl but its not a real side of mine the real me is in deep of my soul ....I'm scared of letting her out cause this world would never accept her
Im a lil different than my other fellows friends and cousins ...
I pretend a lot like in many things including my emotions and weakness
I pretend as if im the strongest girl but I'm so lost inside ..
I usually doesn't share my week points with anyone cause I don't want any pity
I'm a tough girl by heart but by appearance I looked like a soft cuision
I have many plans many dreams and goals to achieve and I will achieve them inshAllah
My dreams are usually quite big
I wanna be a super star IDC if I got popular in singing or acting or in any othr way but all I need is to be a strong woman in future ...
Cause I have many people to take care of and I have to help them in every possible way so that I need a good reputation and name for it ....
Well I have recently passed my inter exams and I got 635 marks out of 1100 well I know they are not gud but yeah I can take admission in any university ...and I choosed numl
My father ordered me to go with bs English so then he will throw me to the lecturer field gosh I hate giving lectures to people after knowing I still needs lectures cause im not a mature kid yet ...
Idk when and how I'll get mature but everyone wants me to get as soon as possible ...lol
I have friends but alas their parents doesn't allow them to use phone and any social thing ya know these conservative cheap minded Pakistani people and same goes for my dad he even doesn't allow me to use a cell phone but I'm so different I kept my cellphone privately no one knows about it except my step mom and Khala ...
I have many friends on Facebook ,amino whtsapp and instagram ..
I also have my sweet cznz not so many but yeah a few but they are love ...
I have a best friend the one and only Humpty ...
I used to share each and every thing with him but there are a lot of things about my past I haven't share with him yet ....but I will
I have no boyfriend Lol my love life never ever goes great or  fabolous cause love doesn't made for me or should I say love doesn't wants me  ...
I got many boyfriends but some cheated me and then I start cheating after then ....
But then after so many months and years I got a boy his name was Gobu ...
In the beginning of our relationship I was not so sure about him ...I was quite puzzled between myself but then after 4 months I started liking him and then liking turns into love and then love turns into affection and then affection turns into deeply in love with a person whom I don't wanna lose ...
And he was the only one with I spend Almost 18 months Ahhhh and in these months my life was so like a movie lol
He was the hero and I was the heroine of that so called movie ...but then things got changed and he got engaged with his czn
...I can't describe how I felt that time after knowing that he's engaged and he 's no more mine .....
We brokeup ...
In the first week I was so hurt so lost so lonely I was like a prisoner who got caught with no charge ......
Life was so meaningless and painful
But then my fend Humpty brought me back to life he told me to love every single second of my life without even thinking about others so I did and then after somedays I finally moved on from him ...
Now life is back being beautiful ....