Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 32

"There are so many ways to spell it out...I love you...But there's only one way to show you...I could scale a mountain and yell it out til my face turns blue...But when I come down what did that prove..."

(Chris POV)

When Sweets left I ain't gonna lie it irritated me but I wasn't as mad as I made her think. Yeah I slammed the door but just for added effect. I'm just tired of the mood swings. One minute she is fine then the next she can't stand bein around me. Man I don't know how much more of this I can take. I mean she's only 4 months and if this keeps up...I might. Nah nah I can't...She's my heart man and now she was carrying my baby.

Damn...

What was I gonna do now? I never saw myself as a Dad anytime soon, so this was throwing all my plans off. What about my fans and my career? I wish I could call my own Dad and get some advice but we were still trying to keep Sweet's being pregnant on the low. So I just decided I was gonna try to figure it all out as I go along. I knew two things for sure tho I was never gonna leave my baby like my Dad did me and I was for damn sure never gonna let my baby grow up with some bitch ass step dad around...HELL NO!

NOT MY BABY!

This was frustrating me like hell tho. I just wanted to get away for a minute and clear my mind but that wasn't possible right now at least not with my schedule. So I grabbed my pad and started drawing.

"Yo what you drawing." Mijo said trying to see.

"Aw just this sketch...I got a lot on my mind." I said continuing to draw.

"I bet...She's just as scared as you are you know." He said staring at the TV.

"Yeah I know...This is just crazy tho I mean I'm excited but at the same time I didn't see this coming...A kid is a big responsibility for real." I said rubbing my head.

"True...So how long ya'll think ya'll gonna be able to keep this a secret? I mean she's starting to show now." He said changing the channel.

"Man I don't know...I gotta tell my Momma soon tho." I said sighing and putting down the notebook.

"You still ain't told yo Moms?" Mijo asked finally looking at me.

"Hell naw...Nigga she would go through the roof!" I said laughing a little. "That's one thing she told me was to not get Sweets or any girl pregnant!" I said scratching my head again.

"Well Brotha looks like you gonna have to say something soon cause Moms and Tina ain't stupid...They're women and they pick up on that shit quick!" He said looking at the TV again.

"Yeah I know...This got me shittin bricks for real and then there's the label...Fuck!" I said getting up and walking to the window. "I want this I really do...It's just a lot riding on every little decision I make man...a nigga feel trapped sometimes."

"Look it's your life Bro so whatever decision you make you gotta live with it. If you got a baby on the way then damn what everyone think because that's your legacy growing...All this shit could be gone tomorrow but that baby will live on past it all." Mijo said matter of factly.

"You right Bro." I agreed then that's when I felt my phone vibrate: Robyn.

I went to the bathroom so that I could talk to her without Mijo over hearing the convo. Yeah he knew me and her talked but since he was loyal to Sweets I didn't want him to be in the middle. The less he knew the better.

"Hey Wassup." She said with her accent that made me smile.

"Ah nothing much just chillin...What you up to?" I asked.