Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 34

"Imagine that the pillow that you cried on was my chest...That the tissue that you wiped your face with was my hand...Girl imagine if you needed advice about some other guy...I'm the one that comes to mind..."

(Chris POV)

Go. That's what it seemed my life was stuck on right now. Going, going, going. Every second of my day had been scheduled to a science. Rehearsals, interviews, meet & greets, perform, bus, airport, sleep and wake up to do it all again. Seems like the last 9 months have been nothing but a blur. I was wrapping up Exclusive and the last few shows of the UCP Tour. I got a chance to open up for BEYONCE and perform a tribute to my Idol MJ overseas! How cool is that? Not to mention I even had my first movie come out! I had awards from everywhere, record sales were through the roof, my bank account was sitting nice, built my Momma her own crib and started building mine on my own land plus I had turned 18! Yeah a brotha had finally made it! So many places, faces, memories and fun times I could write a book! I couldn't see myself doing nothing else man. Being on that stage and hearing all those screams was mind blowing! So career wise I was happy.

BUT!

Things with Sweets and I weren't as happy. It seemed like the better things went in my career the more we started to drift apart. When she recovered we went right back to work. She didn't want to take any time off which I really think mentally she needed but she is stubborn and who was I to tell her how to heal? Man but I could see in her eyes every day she wasn't happy even tho she would laugh and smile with everyone like she was fine.

She wasn't...

Sweets could fool everybody else but I knew she was still hurting and I could feel her pulling away from me. Man I had tried everything I could to help her through her pain but nothing I did could fix it. It's like she felt like I didn't understand but I did because I lost a child too! It just hurt trying to hold on to something that was falling apart before my eyes. To see the person that once was my heart, rock and confidant slowly turn into a stranger hurt like hell. I know I haven't been the best to her this whole time and I still have had my moments of being reckless with the temptation that comes my way but 3 years is too long to just walk away from. So mostly we would drift around each other like we were friends more than lovers. My heart was telling me to hold on but my brain said it was done so be fair and let her go but...Nah nah I couldn't see myself without her!

The whole CBE crew had got together for a pool party at Tina's new house in LA. We were having a blast dancing, having water fights, joking and of course Big Pat was on the grill. Yeah Buddy I was ready to smash some Q! Ha! We all sat by the pool doing imitations.

"Look...look...Who is this?" B-Shaw said pretending to be on the phone. "I don't have time for this...You guys act like a bunch of children...You got 60 seconds to get downstairs or you're getting left." He said in a girlie voice.

"TINA!" We all said laughing as we all looked over at her.

"I do not sound like that guys!" She said surprisingly taking it well.

"Yeah you do!" I said laughing "Or... or...What the hell is this? Clean this bus up! You guys are worst than bums on the street! And what is that smell?" I imitated her laughing harder.

"Oh my God Yes!" JD said laughin so hard he was in tears.

"Well it does stink...You guys are digusting...I mean who hides dirty socks and boxers in the seat cushions?" Tina questioned laughing.

"CHOZIN!" We all said at once.

"What? Nah nah that was Mijo man!" Chozin said embarrassed.

"Hell naw fool you always sleep on that bunk...Don't put that shit on me!" Mijo said laughing.