Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 35

"Let's listen to some love music...Love music...Lay back and just let it spin this music is your friend...Love music...Love music...Nobody has to know..."

(Sweets POV)

My heart came alive for the first time in a very longtime. I have to admit I haven't been the easiest to deal since I lost the baby. It is such a hard thing to deal with. Even though at first I didn't even want to be a mother I grew to accept the situation and she became a part of me.

I had had so many losses in my life. Lost my Dad when I was 14 in 9/11. Many people don't understand just how devastating that is especially in the circles I run in. That day is more than just some televised event that happened...It was the day I lost my hero. Lost my Grandma which practically raised my when I was in Atlanta and just a year ago I lost my big cousin Philant. Trying to get my heart to heal from it all was overwhelming. Chris tried but sometimes I felt like he didn't take life serious enough. I mean I would watch him sometimes and he had changed so much. He was more arrogant like he didn't have to answer to anybody.

INVINCIBLE

Which he was not. I had also started to notice things that he had now made a habit of doing that were totally out of character before like making excuses for why he had to be late at the studio without me, going to events or parties without me, hanging out with his new circle of celeb friends like he didn't have a girl at all and then there was....Robyn. SHE would always be spotted with him. SHE would always be in magazines and blogs with him. SHE would come to hang out at the studio. SHE would be the one he was talking to when I couldn't get him to answer the phone. SHE seemed to always be around.

HER!

I tried hard not to let the whispers and rumors distort how I felt about him or my trust but it had got clearer and clearer that SHE was becoming a factor in our relationship. I had never felt like I couldn't trust Chris's word because he had never given me a reason to since we got back together 3 years ago. But now it was almost impossible to ignore! The only thing I hadn't done was ask either one of them flat out. I did want to...I wanted to believe he was still my prince charming...My protector...My heart...My lover...My BEST FRIEND that would rather die than be without me! So tonight I was willing to pretend...Pretend that we were back on that stoop in Harlem...Even if it's just for one night.

"So what did you think of the song?" Chris asked hugging me around my waist as we waded in Tina's pool that was lit up from the bottom.

"It was so beautiful." I said laying my head back in the pool as I wrapped my legs around his waist.

"Well I'm glad you liked it." He said kissing my stomach as I floated.

"What you doing?" I asked looking up at him as he swam under the diving board with me still holding on.

"You'll see just hold on." He said as he grabbed a hold of the diving board with one hand and steadied me with his free hand.

It had been a week since we had slept together and well I knew where his mind was going. I didn't mind because I was rather tipsy so I wanted to feel every part of him right now.

"Come're." He said pulling me to his lips.

As our lips and tongues touched I felt him grip my ass. I could feel Monsta was already at attention and was trying to break free from his shorts.

"Mmmm....You want me?" I asked breathelessly in between his deep kisses.

"Yeeess you feel me baby?" He said grinding Monsta on me.

"Yes..." I said while he sucked on my neck.

"Let me in then." He said as he slid his free hand between my thighs.