Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 38

"Thought I was the one but you done left me out...And now I can't say nothin...Now my everything has turned to nothin...What can I do?...What can I say? Nothin..."

(Chris POV)

I woke up in my hotel room hoping that yesterday was all a nightmare. I didn't want to turn over thinking just maybe Sweets was lying on the other side of the bed. I couldn't bring myself to move because I didn't want to believe she wasn't there so I just laid there til my phone rang: MOMMA.

I didn't want to answer...I didn't want to talk...I didn't want to face anybody. I just wanted to lay there and pray that this all was a dream. I heard my phone go off back to back then I heard a knock at the door making my heart jumped a little.

MAYBE IT WAS SWEETS!

I sat up with my heart pounding but before I could move out the bed I heard Big Pat's voice.

Damn it...

"Breezy it's time to go!" I heard him yell through the door.

I had a photo shoot and interview today for a magazine about Exclusive. I had released my single Wall to Wall and I was getting good buzz but I didn't want to go so I grabbed my phone and dialed.

"I'm not going." I said into the phone with barely a voice.

"Chris you have to. They're already set up and ready to go!" Tina said in a slightly irritated voice.

"I'm not doing it!" I said firmer.

"Chris you have no choice. This is your job so all that other BS has to be worked out later." She said with a disregarding tone.

THE FUCK?

"BS? BS? IT'S MY LIFE TINA! MY FUCKIN LIFE AND IF I DON'T WANT TO DO IT TODAY I'M NOT!" I yelled hanging up the phone and throwing it across the bed.

I got up and started to pace. I was ANGRY. Angry about everyone dictating my every move, angry about Tina and her bullshit stunt she pulled yesterday. Yeah I knew she did it on purpose because she's been trying to get Sweets and I to break up for months now! She just kept telling me "You're about to be 18 so it's time to start fresh get out there and mingle find a better look."

A BETTER LOOK? A BETTER LOOK?

Well look where finding a better look got me! Losing the best look I ever had...A loyal woman that never tried to hurt me, never wanted anything from me, never wanted to be in the spotlight, never cheated, always supported every dream I had, was crazy about me, carried my child and was my BEST FRIEND!

SO WHAT BETTER LOOK?

I was ANGRY! I was angry the most at myself for letting other people dictate what was best for me...Influence me to do what they saw was best.

FUCK THAT NO MORE!

I was also angry at myself for being weak. Weak minded, weak willed, just weak. I yelled out in frustration and that's when I realized Big Pat was still at my door because he began to beat on it loudly.

"BREEZE LET ME IN!" Big Pat yelled.

I didn't respond so that's when I heard the key card and in came Pat and Mijo.

"I'm not going...I already told Tina I ain't fuckin with this shit today." I said in a dark tone.

"If that's what you wanna do then I'm with you." Big Pat said risking his own job.

I just nodded in appreciation. I mean he coulda cussed me out, he coulda walked out but he stayed. I couldn't even bring myself to look at Mijo tho. I had fucked up and that's the one thing he told me to never do was hurt Sweets. That was his sister and he always looked out for her.

"Get up nigga!" I heard him say. "Get Up!"

Here we go...

I didn't want us to go out like this. He had become my brother and I didn't want to lose him too.

FUCK!

"Nigga I said get up!" Mijo pushed me as I sat on the bed.

"Man I ain't finna fight you." I said trying to keep my cool.

I knew he had to own up to his word and defend Sweets's honor but I couldn't fight him.

I didn't want to...

"Naw nigga get up!" Mijo shoved me harder this time and it pissed me off so I tackled him.

We began wrestling all over the hotel room til he finally had me squared up with him.

"I told you I was gonna beat yo ass if you hurt her." He said swinging on me.

"Fuck you!" I said swinging back as my anger took over.

We went blow for blow for what seemed like 10 minutes and neither one of us were getting the best of the other so Big Pat finally stepped in and broke us up.

"ALRIGHT THAT'S ENOUGH!" Pat yelled pushing us both back.

"Next time we won't be throwin hands on my life!" Mijo said huffing and straightening his shirt.

"Aight...Aight." I said trying to catch my breath.

"Now how you gonna make this shit right nigga?" Mijo said picking up one of the overturned chairs still breathing hard.

MY BRO!

"I don't know...She...She hates me so there ain't no use..." I said sitting on the bed defeated again.

"She don't hate you...She hurting. You would be too! So the best I can tell you is give her some space and time. Just don't do nothing stupid to piss her off more in the mean time." Mijo said matter of factly.

"I'm sorry man...I can't believe I did this shit." I said shaking my head and placing it in my hands.

"Ain't no use in feeling sorry for yourself...All you can do is own it and take whatever she feels like dishing out...Know what I'm saying?" Big Pat said placing his hand on my shoulder. "I think ya'll gone make it tho you just can't fuck up no more or you gone lose the best thing you ever had." He finished.

Mijo and I looked at him in shock because Pat never really gives his advice he was more of a sounding board than anything. So hearing that advice I knew I had to take it to heart.

"Thanks Pat...Preciate it." I said nodding.

"So you tried talking to her yet?" Mijo asked.

"Not since I left last night." I said realizing that we had two more shows left and we were leaving tonight for Houston. "You think she will quit?" I asked Mijo.

"Man I have no idea...Imma go check on her and see what she gonna do plus you know she thinks I'm in on it." He said giving me the mean mug. "So I gotta go let her cuss me out too." He said standing up and holding out his hand.

"Thanks bro." I said sighing.

"Aight I will get up wit you in a minute bro...And clean this fuckin room up it looks like a dump!" Mijo said as we touched our matching tatts together.

"Aight man!" I said smiling sadly.

Despite how he felt about what I did, we handled our beef like real brothers and now I just gotta wait it out with Sweets.

I really hope she doesn't leave...