Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 39

“One of the things I miss most is how you used to make me feel so right…”

(Sweets POV)

Seeing the sunlight coming through the windows of my bedroom only reminded me that I was still alive and that all of this was real no matter how much I didn’t want it to be. I heard my first call alarm go off on my phone. I forgot that we had rehearsals and then we were leaving for Houston tonight. I did not want to go because I didn’t want everybody looking at me.

I was embarrassed...

I honestly didn’t have to finish the last two shows I really could just walk away. I had made more than enough money from dancing, songwriting on top of my trust fund and real estate investments so I didn’t need to work for anyone ever again! I could pursue my dreams of styling, artist development and opening my dance studios. See I never needed Chris, his money or his name because I had my on contacts, my own name, my own money and my own dreams. It was crazy because I didn’t have to work with him at all. I had other artists that wanted me to be their dancer, write for them and be in their videos but I did it to be supportive and be with my man. Be with what I thought was my man! I put my ventures on hold to make sure he didn’t have to worry and help him get to the next level in his career.

I was the one who encouraged him to start writing for himself and other artists. I was the one who encouraged him to pursue acting and take his art serious. I was the one who encouraged him to start branding himself and was behind the birth of CBE! BUT you know who got paid for all I did and took all the credit? TINA! Since she was his manager everyone automatically assumed she was the one grooming him to be this great business man. Ha! Nope because that would mean he would be more independent from her and start making his own decisions because he was now 18. And let’s be honest Chris was her only client so the more I pushed him to make his own decisions the more she wanted to get rid of me! Still I never complained. I never once acted like he owed me anything. All I wanted him to do was love and be true to me. I had had plenty of opportunities to cheat, leave, be flown around the world and never want for anying for the rest of my life by some very well off and known men. Men that were also close to Chris but I never once thought twice about turning them down.  

NOW I WISH I WOULD'VE DID IT!

But I didn’t because I loved him with all of my heart and soul. I believed in him. I knew he was something special here on earth...Like if I was out of his reach I would be lost forever. It was crazy now that I thought about it. Being with him was like being on a constant high that you never wanted to come down from but what you're not prepared for was hitting that ground hard and fast in a blink of an eye when reality hit you!

I finally decided to get out of bed and started trying to find something to put on.

I don't want to but I'm gonna do this!

If there was one thing I wasn’t was a quitter. I am a professional and I was determined to finish what I started. Damn Chris! This was about me keeping a good professional reputation. I refused to give Tina the chance to run my name into the ground for leaving because I've worked too hard. No…I was gonna finish this then go back to Atlanta to finish building my house and take a break til we had to come back for rehearsals 2 weeks before Thanksgiving. I would suck up my feelings about Chris and just stay the hell away from him unless the job REQUIRED it. I just hoped my heart was strong enough to do just that and that he would just leave me be because if not it could get ugly!

I heard my phone: MIJO.

“Hello.” I said dryly

“Aye open up I’m at the door wit Janina.” He demanded.

WHAT HAPPENED TO ASKING?

“I really don’t want to talk right now…I’m trying to get dressed.” I said flatly as I walked over to my dresser pulling out my sweats drawer.

“Man come on we already at the door…See!” He said ringing the doorbell repeatedly.

I closed my eyes and sighed. I pulled on the sweats and put on a tank as I went downstairs.

“Hello!” Mijo said into the phone as I opened the front door with my sunglasses on and my hair all over my head.

“Damn!” Mijo said jumping back.

“Don’t start.” I said to him walking back into the living room.

“Hey Babygirl…How you feeling?” Janina asked in her always sweet tone.

“Like Shit.” I said with little emotion.

“Well you do look like i-.“ Janina hit Mijo in the arm before he could finish.

“Stop!” She said shaking her head.

“My fault.” Mijo said.

“I’m glad you find this so funny!” I said shooting him the most evil glare I had in me as I raised my sunglasses.

“Ain’t nobody acting like shit funny…Look I didn’t have nothing to do with that shit.” He said shaking his head.

“Pssh…Whatever you’re his “BRO” right? So there ain't no way you didn’t know! How many more is it Mijo huh?….You couldn’t even warn me!” I said starting to tear up. “Just have me walking around looking like an ass this whole time…How many other people knew?” I said getting up.

“I told you I didn’t know…I mean I met her 3 or 4 times but she was with her friends never just them two alone so I didn’t know!” Mijo said standing up. “Look you ain't gotta believe me but you know I love you and I wouldn’t let you look stupid for nobody!”

I wanted to believe Mijo so bad but I didn’t believe anybody that was connected to Chris right now. I just wanted to be alone so I could get my head together for one of the hardest work days ever.

“Well I had no idea either but..But I do know that Chris is crazy about you so this is all just shocking.” Janina finally spoke sadly.

I loved Janina to death and we've been the best of friends for 5 years but in this moment I didn’t want to believe her either. I didn’t trust anybody that was around me right now. Everybody wanted us to be together so bad that they would say anything to get me to forgive him!

“Well you know what you guys that’s cool and everything but I just don’t even care to talk about it anymore…What time is rehearsals?” I asked numbly.

“At 3.”  Janina said looking over at the clock: 1 pm.

“Well I gotta go finish up…I will see you guys up there.” I said.

“Ok.” Janina said getting up and giving me a hug. “See you in a minute.”

“Ok.” I still had no emotion.

Janina walked outside and Mijo was still standing there like he had a so many things he wanted to say.

“I kicked his ass.” Was all he said as he walked over to me and kissed me on my forehead then walked out the door.

MY BRO!

All I could do was crack a half smile as I turned around and ran upstairs. I put on my white, black and cement grey 3’s, my white glasses, brushed my hair in a bun, put on my scarf and left out.

I was determined to make him feel uncomfortable. I refused to let him see that I was hurting. He was gonna have to deal with the new me. The one he created.

I just wanna get this over with…