Losing Innocence

"Lilly,were heading out." my mom called to me for downstairs. "Bye, i love you" my voice echoed back. I can hear her gathering her stuff, and with 6 footsteps, the door closes. Now is my time, but i have to wait 20 minutes to make sure they're gone for good. I look down, at my pierced skin, covering up my scars with my long sleeves.no use, soon, every inch of my skin will be exposed. In the cold air, touched by his sweet, sweaty body.

I pick up my phone, select messages, click on the name that displays "jay" I type "safe" and press send, nervous, knowing what will happen, when my parents are gone. Not even a minute later, my phone vibrates, on my stomach, which is feeling an overwhelming amount of butterflies flying, and trying to escape. "Can't wait, almost there ;)" appears on my screen in a box with jay's name displayed over the top. I start typing back, only to be interrupted by the loud rev of an engine. I walk to my bedroom window and feel the cold hard wood beneath my feet. All of my senses are coming alive now. I peer down and I see jay get out of the drivers seat. And i think to myself, this is it.

Jay peers at me and smirks, and without any effort, glides through my front door and before i can even get to the bottom of the stairs, he's in front of me. My anxiety kicks in, but I ignore it. I want this. I've been waiting for this. "Hey beautiful" Jay smirks while he grabs my waist and leads me to my own bedroom, he is in control now.

I barely stepped into my room before he pulls me in, kissing me, gently, yet so passionate. I thought i had backed into the wall and ruined everything before my shirt was even off but he took advantage of the moment. He pushed me against the wall and evidently got more passionate with each kiss. He placed his hands on my waist shortly before moving to my wrists to move them over my head. His arms holding mine up, he softly bit my lip and trailed his tongue from my shoulder up to my ear lobe. Biting softly. He was turning me on so much. I let out a quiet moan under my breath, and he stopped and just stared me in the eye. He did that sexy smirk and I knew i was done for. I wanted to rip off his shirt right now, right away, taste every square inch of him.

A kiss breaks the stare and every time my mouth opens, the butterflies escape. My fingers run through his sexy hair, he grabs my waist and pulls me in, chest to chest lips to lips, trying to get to body to body. "Jump" he demanded, i followed directions and he carried my to my bed and lowers me. He climbs over me straddling me, with his hands holding mine down. He slowly trails his tongue up and down my neck,my eyes rolling back into my head. He loosens his grip on my arms, slowly, i slide them towards his waist to grab ahold of his shirt, and start to pull. Without stopping, he finishes the job. Ripping his shirt off to reveal his bare chest. He stops kissing me, "aren't you hot in that shirt?" he smirks. I grab the back of his head and pull his face towards mine, smashing our lips together. I could not go another minute tonight away from him. "I want you so bad" i whisper in his ear, my nose trailing down his neck. He smiled, His hands gravitate towards my hips to pull off my shirt, roughly.

His tongue on my ear, i reach for his belt, he jerks when he feels me tugging on the buckle. As soon as i successfully cracked the code, his tongue turned into a smile and moved to my lips, hands grabbing mine, once again holding them above my head. Such a fucking tease. The open button on his pants, touching my skin, with my hands above my head. His rough fingers graze my bumpy wrist, running his fingers over my scars. "You can forget all of that now baby" I felt his warm breath on my neck, the breath slowly transitioned to a tongue and slid down my chest, trailing down my stomach, and repeating back up, and down. Until the second time around, when i couldn't handle it anymore, i wanted all of the layers between us gone. I wanted us to be one, i wanted him. And i wanted him bad. as i waited for his tongue to tail back to my, chest, i trailed my hand up and down, right above where his pants start, and my innocence ends. Before i even realized I was doing it, i was pulling on his zipper, pulling off his pants, revealing bare skin. As did he. I grabbed my sheets to cover our bare bodies on top of one another and It dawned on me that this is the moment, as he grabbed a little square package out of his pants pocket, before dropping them on the floor, never to be touched until i was done with him. I panted while waiting for him to slide on the rubber, i couldn't keep myself away from him any longer. "Impatient?" he smirked, i wanted so badly to play hard to get, but I was done waiting. I crawled over him, tongue on tongue, chest on chest, body, on body. I felt a finger then two, slide inside of me, gently and effortlessly. And at the same time, i felt his tongue on my neck, i lost all sense of control, i let out a moan, then two, and all of my thoughts flew away, alongside the butterflies.