A/N: Hi there! At last! After a long long time I finally got the courage to post this one. Been thinking if I would make a novel for this but I worry I might ruin the original story. (I need encouragement :P LOL) For now please take time on reading this one shot story. I'll truly appreciate it. Thank you so much! :*
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The open Letter
FIRST LOVE, FIRST GOODBYE
To the Man in My Past,
Hi! It's been years. I hope you are doing good and you are finally happy. Can I borrow a little of your time? I actually have a story to tell. The point of mine that you never heard of. From the far past when there's still an us.
Do you remember the time? When we would look at each other from the front and last seat of our classroom? Then I would look away? I did, not because I don't like you but because I was shy. I was shy that every time I look at you I would see you staring back at me. But I just want you to know, those shy stares actually made my heart flutter.
Hey, do you remember the teasing we got from our friends when we were made escort and muse? They made me feel closer to you. And all those walks with you, I love them all, even if we are at the opposite end of the line as we walk with our friends.
Remember the valentines day beside the window? We're facing each other while the wind is blowing my hair. The card and the promise that you would win my heart? I could remember them well. The campus talked about us the next day. They said we are the new love team.
How about that particular night in mid December? Do you remember the sky full of stars and the moon so bright? I said yes to you. That night was so cold yet my face felt so warm. I thought it was burning. I couldn't forget your face too, and I know I made you happy.
After that night, every hours was worthwhile, every day was happiness. The bear on our first month together and the couple ring on our first year together. The kites in a clear blue sky after school. Every secret stares in the class and exchanging of sweet smiles, every minute with you completed my days.
Do you remember how things started to change? And why? Because I don't... When we started to talk less. When the smiles started to fade and when the special days were forgotten. That's all I remember before everything stopped between us. But I never told you this. I actually waited for your messages back then and I would searched your eyes across the classroom during classes but you wouldn't stare back at me. And I felt you're drifting away, away from me.
Don't you know you crushed my heart when I saw you with her? The martyr I am, because I still trusted you. I waited for you to come. To come and tell me the rumors aren't real. But you never did.
I'm not sure if you could remember that one late afternoon, when I asked my friends to help me so I could talk to you after you avoided me for weeks. That day, you broke my heart all over again, when I keep asking why, and when I begged and cried but you never let a single word slips out of your mouth.
The pages of the calendar was torn one by one. And every day is breaking my heart. Every moment, that I would see you smiling for her and not for me anymore. I cried every nights of then, I can't help thinking about you. And all the whys and hows. You don't know I still watches over you from across the field. I searched for your shadow around the campus. I stopped every time I hear your name. And I still hope for your stares.
I still keep the bear that you gave me. The sunken flower in the vase, the love letters and the clock that now ceased in running. Even the piece of paper with your name on it that I picked up from your desk.
I kept all the memories of that youthful days. Your perfume that still lingers in my nose. Your wide smiles. The warmth of your arms and the loud beating of your heart in my ears. Everyone envied the love story that we made, hoping we would still end up together after everything.
I have kept your memories from all those years. And the reason I'm writing this is to let you know... I am ready to let them go. To release them under the starry sky or one clear blue sky. In the wind that blows my hair, in the field were we used to lie. In the sea below our kites. I'm setting them free. Your memories are not supposed to be locked up in a jar. I know that. So I'm finally letting you go... my first love, my first goodbye.
From the girl you left behind and who has now moved on.
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Sorry sa typo and grammar talaga. Hirap mag self edit. Pero sana ma appreciate niyo :) Thanks! Kiss! 😘
