My life, is complicated. At school, I'm invisible. I'm not bullied, I'm not popular, just unnoticed. But I guess that makes it easier to keep my secrets. I wish that it was like that at home though... At home, I'm beaten. Day and night. I guess I de...
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A/N Hello fellow humans! First of all thank you so much for clicking on this book! I know I'm already writing another one but I hope this one will motivate me to keep updating. Not that I don't wanna write! Only that it might give me another thing to keep my mind off things. Anyway, Thank you heaps already and I hope you enjoy the book! Sorry for the picture as well! For some reason it wouldn't let me do the URL...
I wake up to the light shining through my window. I lay there thinking about how my life was before. Before I made my mistake. When life was perfect and we were all happy. I sigh remembering the good times and pull the blanket over my head. I lay there contemplating whether I should get up and get ready for school, or lay here miserable. Although, I don't really have a choice. I sit up from my thin mattress and stand up from the floor. I walk over to my small pile of rags and pick out what I want to wear. Not that I have much. I choose my ripped black jeans and my black over sized hoodie out of my small selection. I slip on my only pair of shoes and walk into my bathroom. I make my way over to the bench and look in front of me. I see a broken girl, that's been hurt and used over and over again staring back at me. blinking back the tears, I start hiding my face with cosmetics. Nothing fancy, only foundation, eyeliner, mascara, and a little bit of lip balm. I put away my makeup then start dragging a brush through my hair. I like it covering my face, it almost makes me feel hidden. trying to muster up a fake smile I hear my name being screamed out from below. "AIRABELLA NORA HARPER! GET DOWN HERE THIS INSTANT!" With a worried look in my eyes I made a last glance in the mirror, swung my bag over my shoulder and hurried towards the door, taking a last look at my empty room.
I raced down the steps with my bag in hand and waited at the steps patiently. "Yes father?" I ask taking a sudden interest in my shoes. "Where's breakfast?" He asks with a sickly sweet voice. Oh no, I ran out of time. "I-I'm sorry father" I stutter. Taking a quick glance up from my shoes, I notice fury in his eyes. I rapidly looked back down before he noticed and heard him starting to stomp towards me. holding on to the hemming of my hoodie, An abrupt force pushed me against the wall. "That doesn't answer my question. Why Isn't breakfast on the table and Why did you stutter like a weak bitch?!" He asked with the force now so strong against my collar bone it almost feels as though it could shatter at any moment. "I'm sorry father, I slept in and I didn't mean to seem so weak. It won't happen again." I say trying hardest not to stutter again and keeping tears at bay, it would just set him off more if he saw one tear on my cheek. "You'll get it after school Airabella I promise you that. Hurry up put breakfast on the table and get out of my sight. NOW!" He screamed in my face and I scurried into the kitchen like a frightened dog. I Quickly made up 2 plates of bacon and eggs and set them nicely on the table for my mother and father. I rushed towards my bag I dropped and was out the door.
I started the 20 minute walk to my school. No, they don't often hurt me in the mornings, at least not bad anyway. Only because if teachers saw me with fresh bruises and cuts every morning they'd get suspicious. At least overnight they have some time to heal, and I have time to cover them if necessary. Trying to walk faster to get to school, I couldn't help but shed a few tears. My life, has fallen apart. The only thing holding me together is my boyfriend. But even he doesn't know the suffering I face everyday. No one knows about what I did, other than myself, and my parents. Having the school in my sights, I wiped my face, put my hood up and my head down.
Walking through the schools entrance doing my usual routine. Collecting my books from my locker, then going to my first class, chemistry. Sitting in my usual seat in the back corner, keeping my head down, I started doodling in the corner of my page waiting for roll call. When everyone was seated Mr Elmer started calling out my peers names. "Jenny?" His low voice called. "Here" answers a high one. "Sam?" "Here" several names were called before getting to mine. "Elizabeth?" "Here" I called back monotone. People here know me as Elizabeth, well, only teachers know who I am. I wanted to be called by a different name after the incident that changed my life forever. Almost as a... New beginning I guess. The next four lessons were followed by boredom.
Lunch. When I sit in a bathroom cubicle and wait for it to be over. 30 minutes of sitting on a toilet seat. Fun huh? I don't eat. Not because I think I'm fat or anything. Oh no, if anything I'd want to gain more weight. the only reason why I don't, is because one, I don't have the money to buy food and I'm not allowed to eat any food from home, and two, since I was never fed when I was younger my stomach has shrunk and I can't eat much without my stomach tearing or even hurting. So I just don't bother. I sit down in the end cubicle and get out my art book. Art relaxes me, it lets me get out my emotions. I sit and draw whatever I wanted for the next 30 minutes.
The bell made my hand stop moving and I looked at what I created. I drew a little girl, about the age of 7, in a corner with her knees to her chest and hands over her little ears. She has her faced scrunched up with fear and in front of her you can see a side of a man with a clenched fist hanging by his side. I sighed. I was that little girl. Not wanting to be late for class I shoved my book and pencils back in my bag and made it to my next lesson.
The next few lessons dragged on for what felt like forever. When the dismissal bell finally rung I felt like smiling. Everyone in the class gathered their things and started pushing their way through to the exit, trying to get out of misery as quick as they can, and really, I can't blame them. School is one of the most boring places on earth, but it's also one of my escapes. So I can't complain that much. A small smile broke out on my face remembering I have a date with my boyfriend this afternoon and suddenly I became eager to get out as well. I stood up from my seat and left class, and leaving the now deserted school
Deciding to surprise him, Blake of course, I started walking towards his school to pick him for a change. Walking only 7 minutes to get to him with a spring in my step, I saw the most heart shattering thing. I stood there, literally hearing my hear fall apart. My boyfriend, Blake Paxton, Was kissing, no, making out with their school slut. Brittany Allen. I felt like I was being suffocated. Like I was drowning, and he was holding me under, laughing at me. My breathing became rapid and I became light headed. How long has this been going on? Finally, He saw me standing there, stunned, with tears rolling down my cheeks. "Liz?" I heard his voice say, laced with surprise. I shook my head and took two steps back. "Liz!" I heard him call again. No. I turned and ran. Not knowing where I was going, I just needed to be away from the boy who betrayed me.
I don't know where I am. I looked around and saw a park. I walked over to the swings and sat down, wiping my tears only to be replaced with fresh ones. This is not the girl I wanted to become. When I was four, I wanted to be a beautiful girl with friends that always had my back, and be a doctor so I could save peoples lives. But look at me, I am a horrible, lonely invisible girl that does the opposite. Why can't someone just take me away? Any place, would be better than here. Anywhere at all. But I'm not that lucky.
And little did I know, I was about to get what I wanted.
A/N Hello humans!! I really hope you enjoyed thefirst chapter and your feedback would be deeply appreciated. Who ever commentsI will give a dedication to in the next chapter and follow! Thank you so muchfor reading this and Iwill update ASAP! See ya soon!
