So it all started when this new kid came into my school. It was his first day, I had no idea that he was even coming to our school. I’m the social outcast non popular average girl, Well for once I went outside my natural social bubble. So this new kid named Cole came into my art class (first period). He didn’t know any of us so I kindly said “Hi, you can come sit with us!” But it was his first day and he didn’t know me or any of the girls around me so he went and sat at a table all by himself. Well as the week went on him and I talked and in about a month we became best friends. I thought I could tell him everything and he always helped me through everything. When I was madly in love with my ex Kaleb and Kaleb kept hurting me Cole told Kaleb to stop and Cole would threaten him just for me.
As time went on Cole was always there for me through everything. He told me I was like a sister to him, Well in January of 2014; I started having feelings for Cole but I didn’t know weither to tell him or not so I went to a close friend of mine named Kristen and she told me I should just tell him how I feel because she thought he felt the same way. Well Kristen gave me confidence to finally tell him and I was trying to make myself feel better but at the time he was living with his grandma. Well I told Cole I liked him and well that didn’t go as planned. Well he told me that he and I couldn’t date because his grandma didn’t like me and that she said that we couldn’t date. That hurt me I cried for days on hand till he called me again and told me that he didn’t want to lose me as a friend or as family. So after that he all of a sudden stopped being there for me and suddenly I was there for him when he only needed me not when I needed him. Well on Saturday April 26th was my birthday party it was a sleep over and my friends were there and I invited Cole.
At about 4:00 in the morning I was upset over my brother passing away 2 years ago since it was on my birthday. And Cole and I sat at the top of my stairs and talked for like an hour. He told me we were basically siblings and the reason he isn’t there for me a lot was because he didn’t want me to get feelings for him again, little did he know I still had feelings for him. Well I kind of told him I will never have feelings for him again so he has been there for me lately but I do have feelings for him and that’s the problem. After we were done talking we went downstairs into my family room to go to bed where everyone else was sleeping so there were no more blankets except the one Cole had so Cole and I shared a blanket he fell asleep first and I just kind of sat there then I laid down facing the other way and that was the best thing in the world to me to be laying there next to him. All the heart ache and pain went away and suddenly I was in a fake world in my mind soon dreaming to be with him for eternity only to wake up to find out we are only friends still.
