Deep Seated

Anxiety

Anxiety. That one feeling you get in your stomach and in your head that makes you want to crawl in a hole and hide from simply everything. Anxiety is simply a birthday party for all of the worst. Fear, doubt, hate. Why does this one emotion have so much power? How come when you are about to do something so rejuvenating for yourself, anxiety just walks in and say's no. Anxiety steals your seat. Why is that? What also is fascinating about this one emotion is that it is simply made up. Yes anxiety makes you feel real raw emotions such as nervousness and regret. But it is simply a mirror reflection of the unimaginable future. The "what if's" and "oh no's" all come together and shoot you in the head. But the funny thing about anxiety is the timing of it all. You could be doing the simplest tasks and it wil creep up behind you and drain your confidence. Anxiety can either take away all your confidence in one second or take away a little bit of it. I think we as a society all face anxiety all the time. Heck we practically cause anxiety on our upcoming generations. People want to be different. People want to do something in their life that they well know will not be a regret. They want to feel that risk of knowing "yes I'm doing this and I know the risk, but I am okay with that." But that's life right? We need to sometimes feel this weird emotion to feel like it well push us to do better. So we can look back at it and think "wow I did that." "Wow I overcame that fear and doubt, and did so much." It all adds up. Here is the equation or outcome of anxiety. First you do something that well be beautiful and quite magnificent. Then right when you are about to do that one thing or many things, anxiety kidnaps your thoughts and ransacks you for the worst. Half of your mind goes numb and you simply feel powerless. But then you do it. You did it! You somehow no matter how good or bad it was, did it. You forget in that moment about anxiety. Yes you may have done bad or you may have done good, but you did it. You stepped on that word anxiety and you gained courage and confidence and did it. Can you imagine all those times either small or big that you did accomplish something? I am sure their is many because you conquered that fear in that very moment. Yes anxiety may be like a ghost and keep coming back to haunt you but I am sure their are and so many more times you overcome it.

Hopefully you enjoyed this chapter! I am so happy to be writing and publishing again since sports is over! Please leave me feedback! I am always open to constructive critism! Thank you for reading!! See you in my next chapter! I will be publishing a lot more!!