another day.

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It is just another day, another morning waking up to a hopeless day. You wake up with that definite feeling of not wanting to wake up. It's no different to the days you lived by already. It has become a routine and a pattern that you feel there is no end to your start, no light to the dark, no fear of wishes, but just a normal monotonous life of hurting.

Life is unfair and it doesn't always come in the best shapes or forms. Life I meant to take you through the darkest ally and the brightest cloud, but the outcome you already know. It's not a marvelous emotion no more.

You wake up and live life because you were told to do so, you told you get up and smile, smile even though it is a fake reveal of the heart's hurt. It's become such a norm that you wake up knowing each and every move, every event, every argument, every smile, every heartache, and every lie. You just want to getvout of this feeling but it has you in a four cornered cage with lions ready to prey and feast on you, it is just a silent death sentence you screaming to get out but not a single soul with hear because no one really cares. No one takes the time to seek who you are, no one desire to love with joy or uplift one another. It's just become a suppressing machine that pushes things down till nothing is left no more. That's how life is.

In fact, that is how people are. They press you down till you have nothing left to give up but a life. It's always you who would go through hell and heaven and cross paths you know is dangerous, you are the ones always trampled upon and shoved all over as a piece of filthy clothe. It's always the one who give more, cares more, loves more, have more, offer more, who never gives up on the one thing that brings life and people together, "LOVE".

Then the questions start. Why me?? Why do I always give my all and seen as a mistake?? What have I ever done wrong?? Why do they hate me?? Where do I go from here?? Who cares?? Why do I still care??.

How do I stop my heart from feeling so much depth of love?? How can I care as less as they do?? How do I stop a life that has started??

It's just a matter of being the different one. You are connected to every emotion of the earth and you feel how those hurting ones breath a heavy breath just wanting to be loved in return.