Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 42

"It's a 360 turn us ending where we begin...Begin like kids again like kissing and missing class...But we needed to learn we're different then just some math...This the big picture we missed it...The figures just didn't add up..."

(Chris POV)

My chest was on fire as I sat there in the door of the SUV. I had just cussed Tina out for all the bullshit she pulled last night...I told her I was cancellin the last two shows. FUCK IT I'll GIVE EVERYBODY A REFUND OUT MY OWN DAMN POCKET! I was sick...I couldn't feel shit....I was numb all over and all I could feel was this stabbing pain that was in my stomach. I was so pissed that I just cried in front of everybody. That I had let Sweets EMOTIONALLY MURK me in front of everyone!

WHEN DID SHE BECOME SO RUTHLESS?

But I knew the answer...I had created A FUCKIN MONSTER! I swear when I looked at her...Her face didn't look like hers...That the voice that was coming out of her was not hers. She was like some stranger straight up PUNKING me and I couldn't do shit about it! I had nothing..No arsenal of jokes...No mental mind fuck that would leave her wishing she never met me...Nothing...I couldn't do nothing.

BUT TAKE IT!

I think it would've actually been better if she walked up to me and SLAPPED me again! At least my brain could understand that BUT THIS? This fuckin slow torture? I can't do this shit...I'd rather be put out my misery.

Damn..

You know what made me breakdown tho...It wasn't what she said or what she was doing...It was...It was because she was so beautiful and I COULDN'T TOUCH HER ANYMORE! Now had the circumstances been different I would've been loving this new attitude but that's just me wanting something I OBVIOUSLY can't have.

OBVIOUSLY!

I heard some commotion and then the studio door opened. When I looked up she was walking to her car with a SWAG that made me want to fuck her right then and there. But when she stopped in her tracks and turned to look me dead in my eyes and mouthed the words that we had said to each other when we first made this official.

FINISH HIM!

"1-4-3"

I felt like I was gonna pass out. Right then I ran to the side of the car and started throwing up. I couldn't stop and I felt like I was gonna choke on my own on vomit! Which at this point would have felt better than this feeling right now! Mijo came over to see if I was alright and I broke down again! FUUUCK STOP CRYIN SHIT! I yelled to myself in my head but it was no use because the tears kept coming no matter how much I covered up my face with my shirt. I didn't know what to do so I just jumped in the back of the car and locked the doors.

I felt like I was 8 again and was crying for my Daddy to come rescue me from the hell I was living every day. I began to shake again. Wait am I dying? I can't stop shaking....Help HELP HEEEELLLLLPPPP! I thought I was saying in my head but it was coming out of my mouth in a voice I hadn't heard since I was little! Wait..Am I goin crazy? I didn't know but I kept shaking and yelling for Help!

HEEELLLPP!

I heard Big Pat yelling at Tina for not having another key to the car. There was a bunch of panic going on around the car then I heard the shattering of the glass. Big Pat had busted the driver's side window to unlock the door. Once they got my door open Pat grabbed me to see what was wrong and I just started swinging.

FIGHT...FIGHT...FIGHT!

I don't know if I was having flashbacks or if I was just mad at the fucking world but something overtook me and I just started waling on Pat. I'm not sure if any of the hits actually phased him because he just grabbed a hold of me in a bear hug and held me tight as I broke down again. He just held me in the most Fatherly way and I guess it was something I had missed...Needed but was too afraid to accept so I kept struggling to break free.