Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 44

“It’s a plot twist just when you said I got this…Right when the fight has stop it seem right but it felt wrong…Hell no..All them nights we held on we can’t let it go…But if we don’t then we will never know…”

(Chris POV)

8:15 pm. I kept looking at the clock on the lobby wall. Everybody was meeting up at the hotel so that we could load up on the bus to pull out for Houston. Since rehearsals was all messed up today we were gonna rehearse as soon as we got to the venue. Now that my mind was a little clearer I should be able to get it together quick. I was sitting there bouncing my leg nervously and just watching everybody with my fitted pulled down. I could just imagine what everybody was thinking right now. I mean we would usually be running around playing, cracking jokes…Just non stop hyper fun but the mood was solemn like somebody had just died. But I guess in a way something did just die…

Damn

I was super nervous but relieved when Momma told me that she got a hold of Sweets and she said that she was staying. I didn’t know how I would react to her again but I was determined that this time we were gonna talk. I didn’t care if she cussed me out the whole bus ride to Houston or kicked my ass all over the bus I was gonna tell her everything she wanted to know and then some! She deserved it. Man I don’t know if she will EVER trust me…Not hate me or Love me again but I always told her that she was my best friend and that will never change because I meant it!

But this sucks...

I went over and over in my head trying to figure out why I had done all this reckless shit for so long knowing full well I wouldn’t be able to keep it up and honestly wasn’t even enjoying it. I was just TOLD it was best to get out there gain life experience and don’t be so stuck on one thing. That I’m young and there is so much I might miss out on being tied down to one. But it was wrong I only wanted her! Sex was the BEST with Sweets because I knew she loved me fully... mind, body and soul. She was the BEST YO! But it wasn't just sex…It was EVERYTHING about her. Plus I knew she would never dream of hurting me like I just hurt her so I made it my mission to redeem myself in her eyes and maybe…Just maybe in her heart fully again.

JUST TAKES TIME.

8:45 pm. I watched as Tina came in the sliding doors with her sunglasses on. She didn’t look my way and barely spoke to anyone but Momma. A part of me felt bad for going hard on her the way I did but the other part felt like it was needed and long overdue! I think I made my point that I was serious about taking more control of my own career. Of course she will be a part of it but a smaller role. I mean who understood my vision better than me? I was also giving Momma more say in my career decisions. I mean she gives good advice and has never steered or pushed me in the wrong direction so yeah she deserved that.

Waiting game...

9:00 pm. I got up and went to see what Moody, Drew and Shaw were lookin at on Drew’s laptop. It was this site called Media Take Out. A blog that spilled gossip about celebs. Some of the stories they had in there didn’t even sound believable! Drew scrolled down and BAM there were stories about me and Robyn everywhere!

WHAT?

I so didn’t need this right now because it would just make everything that I was already in the middle of worse! But I was curious to see what they were saying…I mean I knew the media was going crazy ever since she came to my birthday party in May and it was shown on MTV. But after that kiss and going a little too far with her a few times…I have fought hard to be JUST FRIENDS so these stories were crazy! I mean they were seriously trying to make us seem like we were actually A COUPLE! HA! Then I got irritated because this was all Tina and Rob’s peoples brainchild…They felt like all the buzz would be a good for Rob’s new album and mine. And yeah even tho I've been feeling Robyn…A LOT…I wasn’t trying to mess up another friendship by being more than friends especially since I still wanted Sweets! I think I’m learning my lesson on that right now! I got frustrated because all these stories did not help my situation at all! The LIES were starting to piss me off so I got up because the places that they said we were spotted weren’t even TRUE! So I just shook my head.