Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 45

“But are we gone leave when it’s this good…Damn it was just good…Seems this lovin was all for nothing…”

(SweetsPOV)
 
6...A year. 6...A FUCKIN YEAR! The words that came out of HIS mouth hit me like a shotgun blasts to the chest! My mind began to race: How did I not notice? Where was I? Who were these bitches? Did I know them? How many people knew? A year? Did he use protection? Did he love any of them? The lists of questions just kept coming and coming til I just yelled ENOUGH in my head. Then it was like I had this wave of erry peacefulness wash over me. I don’t know what it was but my heart didn’t hurt…I was calm.

“I know things are not good right now…but just trust God and he will give you the answers and the peace your searching for.”

I heard Mama J’s voice in my head. I had asked God to make HIM be honest with me and to help me find away to forgive him. So I was calm. I noticed that he was startin to shake and sweat. So I asked him if he was ok but he wasn’t cause he could barely breathe or speak so I went to get Mama J.

“MAMA…THERE’S SOMETHING WRONG WITH CHRIS!” I yelled to her.

Just then everybody ran towards the room. When I got back to his side he was sweating so hard you’d think we just came off stage! I grabbed his hand he was shaking and still trying to breathe. Mama had to push passed Mijo, Pat and Shaw to get in the room.

“Pat…Mijo pick him up…Sweets help me pull the bunk out!” Mama shot out orders in a hurried tone.

Shaw quickly grabbed the studio equipment out the way while I broke the table down so that we could turn the seats into a bed. Once Mama and I had the bed locked Pat, Shaw and Mijo laid him down.

“I-I’m-fi-nne…Jus-“ Chris struggled to say something while trying to wave us away. I think he was more embarrassed than realizing the severity of the situation.

“Le-t-me g-o.” He continued.

“Baby stop trying to talk and just breathe ok?” Mama said fanning him with the notebook.

“Mo-mma-stop.” He still tried to struggle.

“Just lay still…You gotta take slow breaths so just stop.” Mama said in a more stern tone. “Breathe.” She said again.

We all stood there terrified and I didn’t know what to do. Mostly I wanted to hold him and tell him he will be ok…That it will be ok…WE were gonna be ok. I was mad yes…I felt betrayed yes…Felt he needed to suffer before I forgave him yes but I never ACTUALLY wanted something BAD to happen to him! I was still in love with him and he’s my best friend…

“I need you.”

I heard him say in my mind as he looked at me with sadden and embarrassed eyes so I jumped into action.

“Ya’ll just back up out of here…We got this just let us handle it…GO!” I said to Pat, Mijo , Shaw and now Janina. They all hesitated and quietly left the room.

I closed the door and climbed in the bed beside him holding his hand while I fanned him with another notebook. He tried to look over at me but he then closed his eyes.

NO!

“Just breathe Chris. Just breathe…I-got-you.” I said into his ear in the warmest tone my pain would let me. It wasn’t about our situation at the moment…it was about being there for my best friend.

I think it took Mama be surprise cause she stopped fanning and looked at me with teary eyes. She didn’t say a word just gave me a knowing nod and smile. I smiled back and began rubbing his chest…I knew that always soothed him.