Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 48

“That was way before the videos…Way before the number one singles on the radio…Late nights at the studio…When I was just CB nobody knew me…You was still the same…”

(Chris POV)

I always thought that even if we didn’t work out we would still remain BEST FRIENDS. I knew I couldn’t blame nobody but myself because I had betrayed her trust. How did I really expect for her to want to be friends with someone she couldn’t trust? I know I wouldn’t…If you burn me I might try once…You burn me again it’s done! So I could totally understand where she was coming from but I only tried to call her to let her know that I finshed my tutoring early and was now a HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATE! Yeah your boy got that diploma with a 3.9 GPA..Not bad huh? I also wanted to give her my new number and I guess that’s me always trying to keep that door open you know just in case she needed me. Ok truth...Yes I was still FEENIN for her too like she was some kinda drug. No lie I really felt like a junkie! She had been my world for so long that a huge part of me felt stuck. No matter how hard I would try not to I'd always end up so lost in my thoughts reminiscing about her that I couldn’t even function.

I couldn't keep going on like this...

I killed the VMA performance trying to prove a point to Sweets...But in the end I still felt empty because well I wasn’t able to share such a big moment in my career with her by my side. It seemed like the world went crazy for the Cindrella remix tho and I was so happy for Rob I mean she is on top of her game right now! But again it was bittersweet to share that moment with her because I knew that I had lost Sweets behind it.

Moving on...

I had been trying everything to move on and getting the ladies was nothing…I mean come on. But honestly I’m the type that really only wants one that I could REALLY call my own you know. Yeah bed hopping is fun but only for so long then you just start feeling empty and well I was on E! So that’s why I've been spending more time with Rob. I know…WHAT THE FUCK? But we have a good friendship to where we can talk about everything and she really understands what I go through with this music shit and the pressures. She just gets it! So I asked her to be my girl...I mean we had been doing us secretly for 8 months so now that I was single and I really had love for her why not be official? I don’t know tho…The homies told me it was a bad idea but hey it’s my life and for now I’m really enjoying Robyn in it. I mean I’m still in love with Sweets and nobody can ever be her no matter how much I wanted them to be but what am I supposed to do? Stop my life because she doesn’t want me no more? Nah I can’t do that so it's on to the next…

“So you really wit her for real?” Mijo asked trying to do a trick on one of my bikes.

“Yeah…I mean why not?” I asked trying to flip my skateboard.

“Because fool you know you still want Sweets!” He said falling a little.

“Pssh…Well she iont want me. Look I tried and she basically said fuck me so hey!” I said flipping the board.

“You know you stupid right?” He said popping a wheely.

“What you mean?” I asked getting irritated.

“How you just gonna let her go for somebody you know got a nigga? That's stupid!” He said laughing alittle.

WHATEVER!

Yea I knew all about Rob’s ex-dude back in Barbados but shit from what she said they argued all the time and he always seemed jealous of her…Like how do you be jealous of your girl? Plus it was known that he was cheating on her all the time so shit she had every right to move around on homie.

Damn...Why did that seem familiar?

Anyway I never worried about him because for one if she was so damn in love or wanted him she wouldn’t be with me. So don’t hate the player hate the game homie! Plus I also made her make up her mind when I finally served her with this good dick. HA!