Broken💔(Jahseh Onfroy)

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Paris
So it's been a couple of hours of turning up n shit, I was starting to get bored. We were all in ski's backyard chillin and listening to trippie redd.
"I'M BOREDDD" I said getting everyones attention
"Well since the birthday girl shouldn't be bored, let's do something you've never done before" Jahseh said smiling at me
"Idc what it is, let's just all do it " I said. He walked into the house and came back after 3 minutes.
"What took so long? " I asked. Then I saw that he had blunts in his hands. He handed one to ski, pump, Ramone... Then me.
"Ummm no" I said trying to give it back
"Paris chill, it's just a lil weed" Ramone said. I thought about it.. I want to but then again I don't.. Ya feel me?
I just took it n Jah lit it for me. Aisha and Leah already left so I was the only girl here.
Jahseh
30 minutes later
So Paris over here trippin😂 she doin backflips in the pool n shit. Well it is her first time getting high so I won't judge ha. Ski is trying to keep her still but it ain't working. She goofy asf and I love it. I'm high asf too but I'm not a hype type person while I'm high. I'm the type that thinks a lot.
So right now, I'm wondering when Paris is gonna be ready to be in a relationship. I get the situation, I have had my heart broken too. Geneva really did a number on me. Shes been texting me recently and I'm really tired of it. I know if I start talking to her, I'mma do something I regret. So I'm trying to make Paris my priority so I won't be thinking about her. I hate that she played with my heart. She was the only person that I told my feelings to... Ughh, I'm thinking about her again. I needa snap out of it.
I went upstairs to lay down. I had a room in ski's house. I rolled another blunt n started to smoke it. I watched TV until I started to get tired. Then someone climbed into the bed with me.
"Paris?"
"yeahh"
"Yhu still high?" I asked smiling
"Not really, just a lil" She said closing her eyes. "I love yhu Jah, goodnight"
"I love yhu too"
Just then... I got a text from Geneva's trifling ass 😒

Thottie: hey baby

Thottie: I miss you😭

Thottie: can you come over😉

Thottie: Ive seen you with another gurl😒

Thottie: why are you ignoring me???

Me: I have no intention of talking to you

Thottie: is it because of that hoe? 😒

Me: she's not a hoe, hop up off my line

Thottie: she'll never love you like I did. She's probably only with you because of your money

Me: stop talking about my girl like that

Thottie: your girl?? Y'all together?

Me: well.. No but soon

Thottie: like I said, she's gonna play you. Nobody loves you😂

Me: sure

Thottie: how could anybody love you? Your ugly and obviously dangerous 😂

Me:...

Thottie: you know it's true. You might as well give up on life.. Nobody will ever love a monster

Am I really a monster? I mean, I lose my cool sometimes but... Am I really that bad? I always knew I was ugly but... She always make me feel like this
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