My Life (based on a true story)

Part 1

Hi! Im Eva, can so eone agree with me that life is harder that living?

I have my friends but...they hurt me... I tolerate it because I feel like I have to... I still want to be friends with them. People say I should just leave them, but thats hard to do.

People I care about get bullied, and most of them have family issues. I want to help them by talking to them but they still think they have to do everything alone, and that no one cares about them, they started cutting, and I begged them to stop cutting but they wouldnt listen.

I have a hard time making friends. I would rather be alone than be in a group of 10 people.

I have my shre of bullies, rumors spread about me, and people telling my secrets, all of these things scars me mentally.

I have my online friends, but I dont talk to them that much these days because they always seem busy, and I would think Im just bothering them.

I love anime, its the only thing I look up to, Im waiting for my favorite anime's movie to come out and it's season 2 if ever it will happen.

My friends would punch me everyday leaving marks every single hit. I pretend Im fine but Im not.

When ever I get home I do homework then just think about the bad things that happened to me. I would talk to my online friend to make myself better but I can't do that.

My parents target me they would shout and slap me without hesitation. I keep quiet about these things. Im a homo but my mom is a homophobic.

I let tears stream down when I can't take it anymore.

Everytime I check my Instagram I see people havingpanic attacks, people leaving, and people that are being hated on.

I wish the world can change, I want everyone to be united. No more judgement, no hate, no more negative emotions in the world, but it will never happen, the world hates you.

The people that are your friends with you will force you to do things to yourself like, cut yourself, hit yourself, and they don't even know what is happening in your mind...