Forever don't exist [ Im youngmin ]

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Jae Eun's parents went into the ICU to visit Jae eun first. she was still in coma. but her parents kept on talking to her to let her know that theres people whom is waiting for her to wake up so she should soon

Then, Both youngmin and Donghyun went in together. youngmin let donhyun talked to her first. and he waited somewhere far just to give Donghyun privacy.

Donghyun heart broke as he sees the latter motionless right infront of him. he kneeled down and held her hand in both his hands. she felt so cold. " Jae eun ah...please. wake up soon. Even if you cant remember me, we can start afresh. I hope u remember me, it will be good to remember everyone but please wake up. i will never forgive youngmin for this but i dont wanna bave hatred towards him. please just wake up i miss your eyes and smile. i miss your laughter,  i miss you. im not leaving you again. wake up please jae eun ah " Donghyun pleaded. tears brimming his eyes but he refuse to let down the tears. he didnt wanna cry because he knew she will wake up soon.

before he leave, he caressed her face and brushed her hair away from her face. only then he notice how badly is she injured and bruised. her hair still has blood stain. her face were badly bruised. her hands were badly scratch. blood still peaking through her bandage. She still look so beautiful. Donghyun felt bad for her, a innocent girl with pure heart to suffer these and to be in this state.

Donghyun caressed her face once last time before planting a kiss on her forehead then he went to find youngmin to let him know that he can talked to her now. 

Before youngmin left to see Jae eun, Donghyun grabbed his wrist. " cafe later after you finish talking " Donghyun requested. youngmin just nods.

Once Youngmin reached infront of her, his legs gave way to him. He collaspe on the floor crying silently,For what he had caused. He slowly stood up and walked to Jae eun side, he kneeled down again and clasped her hand in between his and brought her hands to his lips. he sobbed on her hands.

Her hands drenched with his tears yet she cant feel anything, neither could Youngmin. he felt so empty and lost and remorseful.

" Baby... Jae Eun ah... Wake up please.. Im so sorry for neglecting you i dont deserve you at all im sorry for breaking your heart up every single time and made you ran out of tears to cry. im sorry for this. im sorry you had to suffer this. i really hope you remember me when you wake up. i wont forgive myself if you dont. but if you dont, i guess we can start afresh. i hope you can hear me. Please wake up baby. please.  wake up. forgive me please. i know what im saying is useless but please baby. Wake up. " He sobs so badly he couldnt catch his breath.

" I cant bare to lose you baby. wake up... i miss you so bad im so sorry. i will do whatever that you want me to do to make it up to you. please wake up.. " Youngmin begged.

He stood up and caressed her hair and face. He hate himself for what he is seeing right now on Jae Eun face,arms and head. He planted a kiss on her lips and forehead. He miss the times where she would kiss him back immediately. yet now he feel nothing. He left her resting motionless on the bed and went to look for Donghyun.

Just as he left, Jae Eun eyes came flowing tears. she heard everything but she couldnt remember who Youngmin his. all she knew was that she misses those familiar touches and voice. she wish she could wake up but she couldnt. She sure miss those familiar touches and kiss but she cant remember who Youngmin is.

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" Donghyun.. " youngmin called out as he reach the cafe.

" Sit " Donghyun said as he stood up to greet him ( a/n : manners yaknow )

" Why. " Donghyun asked as Youngmin sat down.

" i..i..dont even know Donghyun-" Young was cut off.

" Thats what you said last time too Youngmin!" Donghyun raised his voice

" I was texting a girl which is not my bestfriend or anything............" Youngmin continued.

" do you not love her anymore?" Donghyun asked as his heart broke into trillion pieces.

Youngmin kept quiet.

" Do you love her? Do you still love her? Did you even loved her? or did you loved her? " Donghyun asked again.

" I love her . i still love her "

" Then why did you do that. " Donghyun has mixed emotion in his tone, Angry, disappointed, sad.

" I dont know..i didnt mean to do it but i dont know.." Youngmin stammered.

" do you not know how badly is she hurt? Not only physically but emotionally. do you know what have you done to her pure heart? are you thinking of her feelings when you do those things? What if she does it to you? all u do is just get mad to her! she doesnt even get mad at you. all she felt was disappointment but she didnt let that take over her she forgive you because she still love you. stop taking advantage of her just because she keeps on forgiving you despite being tore apart. mark my words Im youngmin, im never letting you take her back anymore. i dont want her to be hurt like this again. if you cant love her right or even treat her right, let me do it. " Donghyun said before standing up.

" I will not hurt her again. i promise. " Youngmin said before donghyun took a step forward

" Thats what you said when you first hurt her im youngmin. Im not trusting you again. but sure, by not hurting her you can stop loving her. im staying here tonight so u can go home. thanks for informing me about this, Hyung " thats the last thing he said before he goes back to wait outside the ICU ward.

Youngmin continued to cry at the cafe, not knowing what he put himself into. he admit, he kept hurting Jae Eun over and over again. he couldnt bring himself to forgive himself.

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