Have you ever had that thing, where you want to do something, but know you cant? maybe its forbidden to do it, or maybe your conscience is telling you not too.
well yeah, thats what ive got - but its not over one of the usual things, like a locked room or secret box. this was over something alot worse, alot alot worse.
Im 15, and i go to a mixed school in southern england, i live in a small village which literally has a population of 50 people and most of them are either little kids, or really old people - you get the idea right? i guess my house is medium sized, nothing special - a pretty average house for my location i suppose. I lived here ever since i was 7, so i know the area pretty well from when i used to explore as a child.
i guess the only cool thing about here is that my bestfriend, Ali, lives here to - that means i see her alot and shes lived here longer than me so ive known her ever since i first joined the local school two weeks after moving.
Ali's one of those girls that everyone wants to be: smart, kind, funny, oh and gorgeous. She gets all the guys, and all the girls wants to be her bestfriend - but she doesnt care, shes got me. everyday after school we meet up and have a laugh, she really knows how to cheer me up on my down days. we talk about everything! friends, school, family - oh and the occasional guys.
Even though shes not that interested in guys - shes definitely had her fair few! most of them were the popular guys of the school, all good looking and with bodies to die for! except for the guy shes with now, he's different to the rest - i wouldnt say he was bad looking, infact i think hes rather cute. his dark brown hair swishing across his face covering his deep blue eyes. i'd say he was handsome rather than hot, and shes really into him, but so am i.
His names Josh, and ive known him for a few years now; it was actually me that introduced Ali and him - i should of known if im honest, he'd obviously go for her, look at her.
thats the only problem with hanging out with Ali now, she blabbers on and on about him all the time, telling me how much she loves him and how long there going to be together. its the same when i hang out with both of them together. they walk holding hands, hugging and kissing while i just stand there watching. i know that she doesnt know that i like him, the same with him, but now its too late to say anything.
i tried to go off him, theyve been dating for a couple of months now so its about time i should - but i cant.
