Shine For Me (Official Chreets Series)

Chapter 53

“And if I could see you…I’d tell you that I’m sorry…I’d tell you that it’s my fault…And I don’t wanna be alone…”

(Sweets POV)

Voices and sounds all around me…Yelling…Sirens…HIS voice begging me to hold on…Pleading for me to not leave him. I had flashes going all through my mind. I wanted to let go so bad…Just wanted to be free of this hurt that I carried around daily. Everyone saw me smiling or laughing and assumed I was fine. I WASN'T FINE! The last two years have been more of a struggle to stay happy then I could bare. So much gain but so much loss that it was hard to keep up a good face anymore. From the outside it seemed I was living my dream…Living the GOOD LIFE but that deep PAIN always seemed to follow me...No matter how hard I ran…So I was done running and wanted to end it all.

I'm sorry Chris...

I could hear the beeping of the monitor next to me. The lights were dim and the TV was on. I felt as if I was havin déjà vu but this time instead of a pain in my stomach my wrist hurt like hell. I lifted my arms to look at the bandages and wondered WHY AM I STILL HERE? I slowly looked over and THIS TIME Chris was asleep in the chair next to me. He looked so uncomfortable with a blanket that barely fit his slim frame. My heart warmed from the sight until I looked to the other side of the room and HE was asleep on the pull out recliner.

MY HEART STOPPED

I struggled to make sure I was seeing what I thought I was looking at but yes it was TREY. I immediately became flooded with all the anger and hurt that he had caused me just…Wait what day is this because he is supposed to be in London? I thought to myself. I was confused so I tried to focus on the nurses board that was on the wall. 2 days had passed which would explain HIS presence. HE was the last person I wanted to see right now! HE had lied to and betrayed me but unlike Chris…HE wasn’t even MAN ENOUGH to admit it! I got flashes of our phone conversation where all he did was deny everything and tell me I was being paranoid plus stop believing all the lies the haters were using to break us up.

BASTARD!

I didn’t even know who I was talking to! This couldn’t have been the man I had fell for…The man I thought would protect me…Love me and never hurt me…The man I had said YES to marrying! No he was a stranger who yet again took my kindess and love for weakness! I felt like a fool so I WANTED HIM OUT!

GET OUT!

“G-GE-T OUT!” I barely could yell. “GET OOOUUUUTT!” I repeated.

I yelled at the top of my lungs and it woke Chris up first…I think he was confused as he wrinkled his face and got up.

“GET OOOOUUUTTT!!! GET THE FUCK OUUUUTTTT!” I continued to yell in Trey’s direction as he sat up trying to see what was going on.

“Woah…Woah calm down!” Chris said in a raspy voice. He looked tired as hell.

“GET THE HELL OUT!” I continued to yell in Trey’s direction as I saw him rush over.

I guess Chris didn’t know he was there because I saw him go from pure shock to the coldest face I had ever seen him have.

“Why are you yellin? Calm down!” Trey said trying to reach for my hand but I pulled away.

“GET THE FUCK OUT YOU FUCKIN PIECE OF SHIT!” I cussed at him and his face was one of pure shock.

“Why I gotta leave? I flew all the way here to be with you!” He said with a confused face.

IS HE KIDDING ME?

“I DON’T CARE! FUCK YOU…GET YO BITCH ASS OUT OF MY ROOM!” I yelled at him I was so pissed I want to punch him in his face.

Just then Big Pat came in the room trying to see what all the commotion was as he walked over to the bed and stood by Chris.