love by chance - a one direction fan fic

Talking with Zayn Malik

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Jess's P.O.V

"What is it, nurse? What's wrong with her?" Harry (i think) asked the nurse as soon as she enterted the hospital room. All the boys and Emily looked at her expectantly. 

"Post-traumatic amnesia, I'm afraid," the nurse said regretfully. At the blank faces, she explained, "post-traumatic amnesia happens when the person has received an injury to the head, causing them to lose some of their memory. How much she has forgotten and how long it takes for her to recover depends on how serious the injury was. Jess here was kidnapped, right? The kidnapper must have knocked her unconscious, and when she woke up the impact of him smashing her head must have caused her to lose her memory. And I'm afraid, by the looks of it, it's quite serious, which will be why she's lost her memory of the last year and also means it will take a while for her to regain all of her memory. It will come back slowly, so try to trigger her memory to help her remember things and people. It will take quite a long time though, and... "

"How long?" Harry interrupted eagerly.

"It's hard to tell how long exactly,but for everything to return it will probably be... between  11 and 18 months." she replied.

Harry's P.O.V

11 - 18 months? How on earth am I going to be able to wait that long? I can't wait over a year for her to remember me. I hate myself for this. Why couldn't I just move on? If I hadn't let myself get so caught up on Jess, I wouldn't be so utterly depressed now. I'm not quite sure how to feel. I keep switching between relief, anger, happiness and complete despair. It's like I keep having massive mood swings. But I can't hate myself, because I was stupid if I ever thought I'd be able to completely sweep the girl I love out of my mind permanently. So instead she's just going to have to remember me. I'll give her some time, not a year, but a month or so. I'll spend all my time with her, keeping on reminding her about the details of things we did together, telling her absolutely everything about myself, even the things nobody else knows. I'm determined. I'd jump off a cliff to make her remember me. I'll give up everything if that will help. I'll do anything.  If it will get Jess back, I'll do it. 

I've been sleeping in her hospital room for almost a week now. I haven't showered. I haven't eaten. I've hardly even gone to the loo. I haven't moved. I'm terrified that she might be on the verge of remembering me, that if I get up for just a second she'll forget me all over again. So I don't dare move. I don't dare.

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A moment later Niall came bursting into the room. "Harry? We got you your favourite food.. tacos and sweetcorn! Here," he held out a delicious looking plate of tacos. My mouth watered, but I didn't want him to know I wanted it, so I didn't move.

"Common Harry, we know you don't want to leave her, but you have to eat!" Liam came and sat beside me. I kept on looking ahead. 

"We're gonna stay here with you bro, aren't we boys?" Zayn said to Harry's back. They all murmered their agreement.

"Y'know hazza, things are getting better," soothed Louis. "We found her! We actually found her! And the nurse said she will get better, so don't worry too much or anything because... "

"YEAH LOUIS, SHE'S GONNA GET BETTER IN A YEAR AND A HALF!!!!!!!! SHE DOESN'T REMEMBER ME!! SHE.DOESN'T.EVEN.REMEMBER.ME.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed at him, blood roaring, adrenaline pumping, before bursting in to tears. I didn't know what was wrong with me. "She doesn't remember me, Lou. She doesn't remember me." I whispered hoarsely. He came to sit next to me and pulled me in to a tight hug. "Come on harry, you need a break. Don't worry, Zayn will stay with her, he's just gone to the loo. Come for a walk. At least come outside. Reluctantly, I stood up. I waited til they had all left. I stared sadly at her sleeping face, before bending down and pressing my lips to her forehead.