Take Me to the Stars

Chapter 7

~ 7 ~

That night, I couldn't fall asleep. No matter how hard I tired, nothing would work. And trust me, I tried everything. You name it, I tried counting sheep, singing, reading, nothing worked. I thought about going to talk to Caleb, but that was out of the question. Caleb sleeps like a rock, and it would be impossible to wake him up. Derrick, he would just get mad at me for waking him up in the middle of the night.

But I just had so many things on my mind, so many emotions to control. Anger, sadness, just the thought that I don't have friends anymore made me want to cry. I'm sure that if I could prove it to them, they would believe me. I just need proof. But the only way they would really believe me is if they saw Rico in person which is, of course, never going to happen. Never going to happen....

I let that sink in. I am really, truly, never going to see him again. Ever since I met him I was so convinced that he would come back for me that I shut out everybody else that was trying to reach me. Poor Justin, he really is a great guy now that I think about it. He's kind, he treats girls with respect, he's smart, he's the captain of the football team, he has beautiful blond hair, blue eyes, and he could have been mine. But I was so obsessed with a boy that I could never have that I shut him out, I rejected him. And now he and everybody else is just returning the favor.

I got out of bed and tiptoed to my window, opening it all the way so that my whole body could fit through the opening. Just beneath my bedroom window is flat section of the roof that's big enough for me to sit on. I don't come here often, just when I really need to be alone and think peacefully, and this place is perfect. In the past, I had laid out some carpets and pillows so that the rough material that makes up the roof would be more comfortable. Neither of my parents know that I come here, my mom would freak and tell me that it's not safe and she would banish me from the roof.

I climbed out the window carefully, wrapped myself in a blanket and settled on a pillow. I only do this at night, because it's to risky to do this at daytime. I live in a cul-desac, so people roam around a lot during the day and they would see me up here. But at night, everybody is asleep and I am safe. The first time that I did this, I fell in love with the sight. It's right above my front yard, and it looks right down my street into a section of trees that lays beyond. Right then and there, that spot became my special place. A place that I can go to if I need to meditate on my thoughts or get away from reality and be in my own world. Sometimes, if i'm lucky, there will be no clouds and I can stargaze all I want. I love to watch the stars. I often look for certain constellations, or sometimes I can even spot meteorites and space shuttles. Often times the moon is out too. The way it reflects the suns rays and casts a glorious light across the dark ,night sky. I have always been fascinated by the night sky and how the moon and stars are arranged to make something beautiful.

“I wish I could travel to the stars.” I said to the half moon that was high above me. I knew it was ridiculous, but I always thought it would be amazing if I could fly up to the stars and stay there without the cruelness of society getting in the way of my dreams.

I looked through the window at the clock on my desk. It read 11:49 pm. Has it really been that long? I knew that I should go inside soon, but I didn't want to leave. If it was a Friday night, I would've slept out there. But today is Wednesday, and I have school the next day which means I have to get some sleep.

“Goodnight.” I whispered to the stars. I quietly walked across the roof towards my window. The boards that held the roof together creaked under the weight. I finally reached the window, and I took one last look at the beautiful night sky before climbing in and shutting the blinds. I tiptoed across the room to my bed, suddenly very tired. I sat down and saw the picture of Rico laying on top of a stack of books next to my dresser. I picked it up and sighed.

“I'm sorry Rico, but i'm moving on.” I took one last look before placing it carefully in a drawer and closing it shut.