All Of Me

       You know those people that are just really talented? They can sing, dance, draw, paint, are athletic, or they are just really good with people. Let me just tell you flat out right now, I am not one of those people. I'm not anything all that great to be honest, just awkward, sarcastic, socially inept Reagan, Ray for short. It's a pretty well known fact that it takes a really special kind of person to be friends with me, I'm just not easy to get along with, most people find me abrasive and it doesn't sit well with them. But to those that see beyond my rough exterior, to the bright, vulnerable, soft hearted girl, I am fiercly loyal and protective. I show them all of me, even those broken parts of myself that I try so hard to keep locked up inside, hidden away, in fear that people will see me as weak if they ever caught a glimpse. See the deal is that only my two best friends, Jay and Chris, have ever actually seen me fall apart. The other two, S.J. and Mason, saw the aftermath of that breakdown, the girl that was pissed off at the person that caused the break and was horrified that she was so weak as to let herself break. But they all helped me through that, they built me back up and were there to catch me again when I fell in weak moments.

         A couple things to know are that my passions are reading and music, as in I like to listen to it and sing along, however badly it may sound, and I'm in college working toward getting certified as a baby nurse. The books allow a glimpse, as well as an escape, into another world, someone elses life, for a brief moment. Music helps to express emotions that I can't put into words or didn't even realize I was feeling until the song came on, but also allows me to let loose and have fun, to dance as if nobody is watching and not to care if there was. Being a baby nurse I get to witness every day the awe-inspiring miracle of new life, but also I get to share in those precious first moments of a person's life where they are the most vulnerable and unaware, I will have the privelage to aid in sustaining that life through it's first few days until they are released from the hospital.

      Now that you have those little tid-bits, those insites to the interworkings of my brain, we can move on to other things. An important thing to know is that my love of musicians extends to One Direction, I have always had a soft spot for them, no matter the disapointment I sometimes had toward them they never lost that special space in my heart reserved for them.  I guess this is where the problems begin, they had already wormed their way into my life through their music, but I always reasoned that it wouldn't ever matter because I was never going to meet any of them anyway... I had no clue as to how wrong I was.

OK, so that is the kind of "introduction" to my new story "All Of Me" I really hope you like it. Please vote or leave a comment if you think I should continue, even for just one person I go on to complete this. Lots of love and well wishes, Bailey. :)