10.23.17
Monday
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Dear Makinis,
Nakukuwento mo sa akin ang mga ginagawa ninyong pagtulong sa mga pamilyang may HIV at sa mga ginagawa niyo ng team mo para mas mapaayos ang kalagayan ng mga ito. Dahil sa mga activity na ginagawa niyo, nasabihan kita ng "social worker na hindi taga-DSWD". Naalala mo ba?
Until now, I still admire you for being a good person just by lending your hands to the needy. ♡
Dahil sa mga naririnig ko from you, mas na-inspire akong maging "anghel sa lupa" even in my own little ways. You have inspired me. Mas nagliliyab ang desire ko to be a "social worker" too.
Naisip ko, "may katulad pala ako ng layunin". Gustong-gusto ko rin talagang maka-experience ng mga naranasan mo sa pagvo-volunteer. Unlike you, sa ibang paraan din ako nag-e-extend ng tulong. Nakuwento ko na sa'yo 'yon kung naalala mo pa.
Bata pa lang ako, pangarap ko nang magpakaanghel. Sobrang lambot ng puso ko sa mga lolo at tatay. Sa kanila talaga ako nakararamdam ng motivation na balang-araw, may significant akong magagawa para sa mga less fortunate. Like you, I want to "touch lives". I want to empower. I want to be one of the reasons why someone is happy.
I want to complete a puzzle even though I have shattered pieces too.
Until I started working and somehow, may na-fulfill naman ako sa vision ko noon. Hindi ko man masasabing long-term ang effect ng ways ko, masaya na rin ako dahil may nagawa ako. May nangyari. May natuwa at naka-appreciate sa "project" na sinimulan ko. Sa inyo, I believe na long-term ang effect kasi may sinusunod talaga kayong system for your advocacy. I want that kind of "effect". Developmental. Ladderized.
Then came last year kung saan hindi ko nagawa ang annual outreach na since 2011 ay inumpisahan ko --- namin. I got really sad and upset because I felt incomplete.
Lagi ko pa man ding ipinagdarasal na gusto kong maging magic stone. Na sana maging blessing ako sa iba. Na-disappoint din talaga ako sa sarili ko but I didn't have enough funds to pursue it kaya tinanggap ko na lang.
Then out of the blue, bigla ka na lang sumulpot na ewan sa buhay ko. Just like that, nag-click tayo. Parang matagal na tayong magkakilala. You were still hesitant to give details though about your life --- maybe because you didn't want to be judged and you wanted to keep some things as private as possible. Kahit ngayon din naman ay reserved ka pa rin though I truly understand and I let you be. We all deserve "safekeeping".
With all the things that you told me over private messages and the ones in "1 A.M.", I realized that you were actually an answer to my prayer. Na kahit hindi ko nagawa ang "project" last year, nakilala naman kita and somehow sparked some hope that I never imagined I could ever give you.
Even until now I'm still wondering how and why I am making a "purpose" to you. That somehow I gave you "meaning" when all I could ever do was be me.
Ano man ang effect ko sa'yo, I want to say that you deserve happiness, wellness and peace. Even with our distance in between, you have an "ate" in me.
And if ever I can't be reached sometimes, I am only trying my best to face my own challenges too. But rest assured that you always have me.
Thank you for coming into my life. I love you, Makinis, my little sister. ♡
Cheers to more social works! More love for our David selves as we face our Goliaths everyday. ♡
God bless you. ♡♡♡
Enjoy life. Have fun. Smile often.
"Behind the clouds, the sun still shines."
"Don't sweat the small stuff."
Ang pinakaseksi at pinakamagandang ate sa buong universe maliban kay Therese,
1 A.M.
🌻🌻🌻
