I'm a mother fucking cat!! (Alan Ashby)

I'm leaving

I woke up to the sound of light tapping from the other side of the door,

"Silent?" Alan whispered through the door, "Silent please it's been two days now" I could hear the worry in his voice, I stood up and unlocked the door, I looked down to see Alan sat on the floor, he looked up at me and instantly stood hug and brought me into a hug,

"Please don't ever do that again I don't even know why you were in there" I looked down at my feet and felt the tears pricking at my eyes, I pushed past him and opened my wardrobe,

"Alan I'm leaving" whilst I was in the bathroom I thought long and hard about mine and Alan's relationship and I've come to the conclusion that I will never be good enough for Alan, I can't please him the way he wishes, I'm not thin enough, my boobs aren't big enough, I'm not pretty enough, I'm just gonna get in the way of his music carrier,

"W-what?" he stuttered,

"I'm leaving" I replied monotone,

"Why?" I didn't answer him, "is it because of Austin because if it is I'll stop seeing him I promise please it means nothing it's just sex Cass please don't leave me"

"It's not Austin Alan I'm just not good enough for you" I started putting clothes in my suitcase,

"Austin? come over now.. no don't question it just move your arse and get over here" I turned around to see Alan on the phone, where was I going to stay? I kept running that thought through my head until I thought of Becca, oh god Becca! I completely forgot about her whilst all of this was going on I forgot about my best friend I'm such a bad friend! I instantly checked my phone and saw Becca had text me multiple times and called me about 100, I such a bad person, I called her, I could hear the phone ringing and then it stopped,

"Becca?" I questioned,

"SILENT DOROTHY ELIZABETH COSTER!! I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU EVER PULL A STUNT LIKE THIS AGAIN I MYSELF WILL PERSONALLY KILL YOU AND THEN AFTER THAT I WILL NEVER TALK TO YOU AGAIN!" she screamed through the phone, and this is why I love this girl,

"Becca hunny I'll be dead" I giggled,

"Oh shut up smart arse and tell me where you are so I can come get you are you at Ben's?" she questioned,

"Becca Ben's in prison" I said in a monotone voice,

"Oh text me the address I'll be right over" she said hanging up the phone, I closed my suitcase and turned around to see Alan looking at his feet, is he crying? I stepped closer to him,

"Alan?" I said lifting his chin and sure enough he was crying, "why are you crying?" I questioned again,

And before I could react I felt Alan's lips against mine whilst he held my face so I couldn't move, I melted at his touch my stomach was doing flips and my knees went weak, Alan must have noticed because he moved his hands from my face to my waist to hold me up, this kiss was different to the others it was filled with love passion longing comfort, things I had never felt before, Alan pulled away from my lips and I whimpered at the lose of his touch,

"Cass please don't leave me I need you, Cassidy I love you please don't do this to me" he pressed his forehead against mine, when I heard the front door open and arguing,

"Who the fuck do you think you are?! telling me I can't see my best friend! just because you're some hot shot famous person doesn't mean you can tell me what to do!" Oh no Becca,

"Who do you think you are?! barging into my best friends house if you're Silents best friend where have you been these past few months?!?" was that Aaron??

"That's none of your fucking business!" ok I need to go down there now,

"Alan take me down please we need to stop this" I said as Alan picked me up bridal style and took me downstairs,

"Becca honey please calm down I think steam is coming out of your ears" I said as Alan placed me on the floor,

"SILENT!!! Oh my god girl what happened to you?" she said bringing me into a hug,

"Ben" I muttered,

"Oh are you ready to go?" She questioned before I replied I had Alan on his knees in front of my head in his hands crying mumbling words I couldn't understand, I knelt down whincing at the pain Alan instantly stood up trying to get me to stand up so it didn't hurt, I refused to move and Alan knelt in front of me again,

"Alan you have to understand I need time to myself I need to think about our relationship" I said,

"Silent you've been in the bathroom for two days wasn't that enough time" he said whilst crying, then his head snapped up to Aaron, "WHERE THE FUCK IS AUSTIN?! I FUCKING CALLED FOR HIM HE NEEDS TO BE HERE ITS HIS FAULT WE'RE IN THIS MESS IF HE HAD JUST KEPT HIS SEXUAL NEEDS TO HIM AND HIS WIFE AND NOT PRESSURED ME INTO FINISHING OFF RATHER THAN SEEING MY UPSET GIRLFRIEND WE WOULDN'T BE IN THIS MESS" Aaron looked to the floor obviously not wanting to say the next thing,

"He ummm he's uhhh he's with Chloe she wouldn't let him come here she said it was your problem to sort out" he stuttered, Alan picked me up and started walking outside with me,

"Alan put me down where are we going?" I wriggled to get out of his hold but stopped because it hurt,

"We're going to Austin's" I could tell he was mad he wasn't looking at me his voice was so calm it was scary,

"WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE TAKING MY BEST FRIEND?!" for gods sake Becca, Alan turned around and stared her right in the eyes,

"I am taking my girlfriend to see my best friend so we can sort this out so she won't leave me" he snapped, Becca followed and got in the back seat, "no out" Alan said,

"Why?" she questioned,

"Because this is a problem for me Silent and Austin now go back inside with Aaron" he said not even looking at her,

"Fine" and with that she got out the car and went back inside and we drove to Austin's.