The Help (MB)

Chapter 45

*Ray*

A few hours later when my head was cleared,I slowly walked back to the apartment. I just couldn't keep my mind off of why she was keeping this a secret? Was she scared I would not love her anymore? Was she scared I'd be mad?

I would never do anything to hurt her,and she knows that. I looked at the time on my watch,and it read 10:54. Pretty late. I opened the front door to find Amaya washing the dishes in the kitchen. Chres , Prince, and Diggy were on the couch watching tv.

They all looked up at me with sympathetic looks,and I just dropped my head and walked straight to the back. When I got to Peyton's room,I tried opening the door,but it was locked. I know she was inside because I could see the small light from the tv showing under the door.

"Babe?" I called.

No response.

"Can we just please talk about this?"

No response.

"Peyton. If I have to bust down this door...."

The door slowly opened a crack, revealing her sad face. I walked in slowly and shut the door behind me.

I grabbed the remote and turned the tv off and turned the lamp on.

"So... Is it true?" I asked.

She just looked down.

"If it is, I just want you to know that I would not be mad at you about it. I took part in this too,and I still love you. No matter what. And i'm sorry for sort of snapping on you earlier." I looked at her and she looked back at me with puffy eyes.

"I.... I'm not pregnant. Well not anymore...." Peyton said softly.

I felt my shoulders get lighter,and I breathed deeply,relieved. Then I scrunched my eyebrows.

"What do you mean.. Not anymore?" I asked.

"I...got an abortion." She said,tears falling down her cheeks. "Please don't be mad." Her voice cracked.

"An abortion?"

"Yes,Ray. An abortion. I was scared and I knew we were already struggling as it is. We don't need a baby. Plus,I wasn't ready for anything like that. When I was in the hospital, the doctor said that based on my very weak immune system,and the fact that my body was recovering still,theres no way I could've had a baby and survived. Let alone the fact that the baby would die prematurely." She said,the tears falling nonstop.

It seemed as if I'd forgot how to breathe for some reason. I let everything she told me just sink in before I would respond.

"Peyton. You could've told me,you know. I would've liked to actually take part in the decision of my child's life. That's what hurt me the most is that you-"

"Ray,wait."

"No I won't wait. What hurt me the most is that you went and did this behind my back."

My eyes were tearing up now,and it was no stopping it. My heart was broken.

"Ray,baby," she touched my arm gently,rubbing it,"I-I don't know how to say this."

"Say what?" My voice was shaky.

"Ray.....it wasn't yours...." Her voice was barely above a whisper,and I was pretty sure my heart had turned to ash by then. Because all I could do was sit there in a daze.

It... It wasn't mine? Maybe i'd heard her incorrectly.

"What do you mean it wasn't mine?"

"Ray. Remember when I told you that the men that kidnapped us allowed strangers to do horrible things to us? I meant they let people pay them to rape us. I got raped like three times when I was there. Me and you only had sex a week ago. It wouldn't have showed this early..."

I sat there still,dazed. I felt horrible for snapping out on her twice,and she hadn't deserved it. I wanted to just slap myself. But instead I just turned and gave Peyton the biggest hug I've ever given.

"I'm so sorry." I whispered,and I felt her breathe deeply and play with my braid.

"It's fine. You didn't know..." She said,pulling back and smiling a bit.

"I feel like shit."

"That doesnt make me feel better. Suck it up dude." She said,chuckling and punching my stomach a bit.

I giggled. "We should be being serious right now."

"I know."

"I love you."

"I love you too." She hugged me again,and I felt way better than I had before...

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