1 death 2 deaths 3 deaths 4 5 deaths 6 deaths 7 deaths more. Never will I know why this year was so shit. I have been through deaths day by day minute by minute I will never know why it won't stop. Tonight I held a life with whiskers and a tail. Its soul left its body and left me with the grief. Early er this year I heled the hand of the one who gave me life. then hers fell from the surface without saying goodnight . after I got told they were going to take there's. Very little good. I will never understand what I did wrong. I want to take mine so everyone will stop leaving me. but that's selfish, isn't it? Selfish old me. Wanting to feel no more. But isn't feeling no more still feeling. But feeling nothing. Just like numbness. Just like 2017.
