↠ Dial ↞ C.H. {au}

19

I shook my head, "No." I turned around as tears began and started walking off the field.

"Tara!" He called. I could hear him running.

I walked faster, halfway up the stairs till he grabbed my arm and turned me around. The tears were already rolling down my cheeks.

"Tara..I'm so-"

"No. No Calum." I said, wiping under my eyes and taking a step away from him.

"I can explain." He said, reaching out his hand, but dropped it when I shook my head.

"No. Just leave."

"Tara please." He pleaded. "I'm really sorry."

"You can't just come here and tell me sorry then expect everything to be alright Calum." I sniffled.

"Just please let me explain."

"Why should I?" I asked, crossing my arms over my chest.

"You shouldn't, but I want you to." He took a step forward.

"Fine." I said, taking another step back and looking at him.

He sighed and ran his hands through his hair. "Look, the day I hit Ethan, I was beyond pissed. I wanted to kill him but you kept calling my name. I was going to let him go but I wasn't going to let him get away with what he did so easily. So I hit him and he deserved it. He's lucky I didn't do more. I went to the room and stayed there to try and calm myself. Haley helped a bit but I wanted to go back out there and beat his ass for what he did."

"I warned him but he did it anyway. I ignored you because there was so many things going through my head, I couldn't think. Believe me when I say that everyone else came to me, telling me you needed me. I wanted to be there for you, but I couldn't. Not with what I was feeling. Luke came by, then it was Allison then it was Haley. All telling me to go and see you, but I couldn't." He continued.

"I was a mess Calum...I cried for hours straight, all alone. Alli and Luke were there but they didn't know what to do.." I said softly.

"I know and I'm sorry." He said.

"Whatever..just continue."

He sighed. "I watched you leave the day you left. I know you seen me. But after that, I went back to school and tried to focus on things. Soccer being the only thing to really distract me. I got your calls and texts but I turned off my phone so I couldn't feel the guilt of ignoring you when you needed me. Allison and Luke came a week later, Alli yelling at me for what I did and telling me how miserable you were and that you weren't even answering any of their calls."

"The past month has been shit without you. My mind always seemed to go back to you. Though it wasn't you smiling or laughing, it was you crying and telling me how much you needed me but I never moved or made an effort. Yesterday, Alli called me and told me how you were going out and drinking. She heard from Ethan. She said that I should come to you, we fought about it but I took the last flight here."

He continued, looking at me. "I arrived here almost 3 in the morning. When I came, I found a girl walking clumsily to what I assumed was her dorm. She bumped into me, to find out, it was you. You were too drunk to realize it was me and I didn't want to say anything. So I brought you to your room, found the key under the mat. Alli told me your room and such. I made sure you got into bed, once I knew you were good, I stayed for a couple hours then left. I dropped off the pills and orange juice early this morning before you woke up then came here to the field." He finished.

I nodded and wiped my eyes again. "Well I'm fine. You can leave now." I said and turned around, walking up a couple steps but he grabbed my arm again.

"Wait. You said something to me last night. I just want to know if it was true." He said, looking into my eyes.

"What did I say?"

"You said you were in love with me. Is it true?" He asked, still holding onto my arm.

I looked into his eyes with teary ones but slowly nodded. "Yes, but you have Hal-"

I got cut off by his lips being attached to mine. He pulled me closer, both of his hands on my cheeks, wiping away my tears. He kissed me gently, it wasn't rough or rushed. It was sweet and passionate. He pulled away slowly and leaned his forehead against mine.

"I love you Tara and I think I have for a long time." He said slowly, rubbing his thumb against my cheek.

I shook my head. "I've been hurt enough...I can't go through it again." I said slowly.

"You won't, I won't hurt you Tara. Hurting you is the last thing I want to do. I love you and I want you to be happy. I want to be there for you. I want to be the reason you smile. I want to be the cause of your happiness. I want to be by your side through whatever the world throws at you. I want to be the one you go to for everything. I want you." He said, looking into my eyes.

"But Haley.."

"Haley and I broke up. For reasons of incompatibility and she knew how I felt about you before I even knew."

...

"Tara, you've been my best friend for years now. I think I loved you even before that. Our deal we had only made me want you more. Then when we called it off, I did anything to still be in your life. I've been denying these feelings for months, then when you had Ethan, I knew it was time to move on. But it wasn't the same. I said I would never hurt you but I did. I broke that promise and I'm sorry. But if you let me, I'll be sure to never break it again. I want to be with you Tara. I want everything with you. I just pray that you want the same." He said, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.

I looked at him for awhile but wrapped my arms around his neck and connected our lips together in a loving kiss. I pulled away and nodded, "I want it and I want it all with you. I'll try."

He smiled and hugged me, pulling back a little and kissing me a bit more forceful this time. "I love you."

I smiled, pulling him closer.

A/N

I think I moved a bit too fast but idk. I mean they were friends for years, hiding the feelings and denying them.

I will probably have writers block because I don't know what to do next.

Well I do, but damn.

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