Have you ever felt so alone? Like no one or anything will ever help to fix all the pain or heal all wounds. Do you ever have those days you wish you can escape the world? To get away from everyone, To leave without telling anyone where you're going. To diaper for months with out a care in the world. I've had those times everyday form the age of eight to now. I fought so hard all my life to put that smile I have on my face to drown all the pain I ever felt away, but realty still lives..I can't always keep running. At some point you get tired. Tired of the pain. Tired of the people. Even just tired of the world... Are you tired? Because I am.
Have you ever thought about what people think of you? Have you ever had someone tell you that they would have never guessed that you are a "troubled child"? Why you fight so hard to keep a smile on your face? I have. I been told. I try so hard because I know that even though nobody notice it I'm fighting to stay alive. I'm fighting for the future that I may or may never get. For that happy ever ending I had dreamed day and night of. But this is not no story book ending.
I've worked so hard for what I have accomplished today. I got to where I am today on my own. Not one person thought I would be able to get through high school, but I've done it. Have you ever been such a shame to your family? I have. I been told that every day by the only person in this world that's suppose to love me and cherish me. Do you now know how I feel? Do you now have an image for what I have gone through for ten years? Now you tell me Do you think I still have the strength to keep going? Because I don't even have an answer that. Not now at least.
