Twisted Story of My Life

Chapter Twenty One

I woke up with another weird feeling in my tummy. Part of me is regretting that I didn't see a doctor earlier. My head is light. I stood up and crept going to the bathroom. I threw up again. I sat on the bathroom floor feeling so weak.

"I worry about you," Calix said trying to carefully pull me up.

Why is he so sensitive? He always catches me in my weak scenarios. Perhaps that is what knights in shining armor are for.

"Sorry. I have been bothering you pretty much," I uttered as I sat on my bed.

He touched my forehead and gave me bottled water.

"Thanks," I mumbled.

"We will not join the tour later. I will bring you to the hospital. Can you shower and have a change of clothes? Will call the front desk for assistance."

I shook my head. "No need, Calix. I have been a burden. You should enjoy."

"Please, Alex. Let me. I want to. I can't let another day pass with you being like that. You might have ulcer or whatever already. And I can't even enjoy if you will not be there with me anyway. Call me corny, cheesy, clingy, or whatever but that is exactly how I feel."

"But... we just met. You can't sacrifice that much for me you know. You don't need to."

"I already said that I want to. Okay? So rest for a while then shower. I only went to this trip to pass time. You are more important than passing time."

I just nodded. I am so weak to argue but my heart is beating strongly.

I took a sip of water then stood up to go to the bathroom for my shower. I felt like my head is too light. I think I tripped on something or maybe my knees just turned to jelly. Everything went black.

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I woke up in a room I barely recognize. Everything is white. I saw Calix sitting on a chair near my bed. I realized I am now in the hospital. Oh, yes I passed out this morning.

Calix looks worried. I got a bit nervous. Is my condition severe?

"What happened?" I asked.

Calix smiled shyly. "Well, do you want to wait for the doctor instead?"

I shook my head. "Please."

"Hmm... the doctor said... that you are..." He looked at me intently before continuing. He also reached for my hand and squeezed it. "You are six weeks pregnant."

"Oh my!" That is the only reaction I managed to voice out with my eyes so wide. Deep inside I had so many things running in my mind. Stupid me! How did I not notice that I missed my period last month? Too busy sulking on that stupid ass. I gave away my boyfriend to his best friend whom he got pregnant. And here I am carrying a fatherless child. Is my baby okay? I did not take good care of myself in the past weeks. I have been drinking too much alcohol and I have skipped meals. I felt hot tears running down my cheeks. I am an equally worthless mother.

I felt Calix's fingers wiping my tears away. I looked up at him and noticed that his beautiful brown eyes are now sad. He tried to smile at me. He leaned closer to me and kissed my forehead.

That gesture somehow eased me. Really, Calix is helping me a lot lately. But I know this won't be for long. Who would want a girl with an excess baggage after all?

After another couple of hours in the hospital, we went back to the hotel. The doctor gave me vitamins, which she said would help in my pregnancy. I told myself that I would find a good doctor when I get home.

"Thanks, Calix. I could have not made it without you," I said when we were in our room.

He sat beside me on my bed and held both my hands. "I have been thinking in the hospital... what would happen to you? The baby? Will you tell Zeke?"

"Maybe. But that does not mean that I will get back with him. It's just that maybe he has the right to know. I am not sure, Calix. I do not know yet."

He is crying. "I hope the first time we bumped into each other I got the chance to get to know you. Then maybe you would have not ended up like this. But you know what... the child you are carrying... I could own the baby. I could be the father. That is if you allow me."

I shook my head. "That is too much, Calix. You don't really know me yet."

"But it has always felt like my heart belongs to you."

I felt tears run down my cheeks again. Do I really deserve this? Good Lord, thank You but should I accept? How about Zeke? Will he not claim our baby once he hear that I am carrying the fruit of our lovemaking? Yes we were still in love when we did this after all. Or at least, I was.

Calix hugged me. I hugged him back. I am in a state of confusion but it just feels so right to be enclosed in his arms. We are so close to each other that I feel his heart beating fast. Maybe he could feel mine too. His warm breath on my ear makes my heart beat a little bit faster.

I tightened my embrace and he kissed the top of my head. How can this be wrong at this moment when it feels so right? I wish there were no complications because choosing him would be an easy choice. Yes, I have just known him a few days back but that time is enough for me to know that he has a kind heart. And believe me, I am falling for him, more each day. Not the rebound kind of fall. I am truly, deeply, madly falling for this guy.