Twisted Story of My Life

Chapter Twenty Two

It's official. We are not finishing the tour but we are staying in the hotel since we could not book an earlier flight going home. It took a lot of argumentation before I agreed that Calix will just stay with me instead of going with the others. I just feel sorry that he has to put up with me instead of enjoying himself in the tour.

"Alex, how are you feeling?" Calix asked when he saw me open my eyes, which I instantly closed again blinded by the rays of the sun entering the slightly opened curtains.

"I'm good," I said reopening my eyes and sitting down.

"Really? No more weird tummy feeling? Please tell me."

I nodded. Perhaps the vitamins helped.

He smiled. He is so caring and he always makes me feel special.

"Thanks, Calix. You have done a lot for this stranger."

"Stop thanking me. And you are no stranger. How can you be a stranger? We are soon having a baby." He winked.

I felt butterflies in my stomach. Sorry baby. Are the butterflies bothering you there? This is too good to be true and I am so scared of the thought that one day I might just wake up without Calix. Well, just for now I will enjoy the moment and when I get home I will deal with the real problem.

He sat beside me on my bed. I was frozen. He leaned his head on my shoulder.

"I wish we could stay like this forever. No matter how complicated things seem, we could get by. Only if you allow me to be the missing part of your life. I won't promise anything but I would do everything to be the best part of your life," Calix said.

I faced him and touched his cheeks with both my hands.

"I wish I could tell you to stay with me forever. I wish I could ask you to hold my hand all through my life. I wish I could beg you to protect me and my baby. But that is just too much. We have known each other only for a few days and you are taking responsibility of my twisted life. I could not let you. It would of course be easier for me to say please do stay with me. But that would be unfair. I don't want to take your life and drag you to the mess I am dealing with. You had a life before meeting me and I could and should not take that away from you, Calix."

He put his hands on my back and pulled me near him. "It is unfair of you if you don't let me. I so want to be a part of your life."

"You are just stuck with me that's why you are sa..."

He did not let me finish talking; he lightly brushed his lips against mine. The most gentle, yet full of emotions, kiss. I kissed him back. We kissed for quite some time. He tightened his hug and I hugged him back. I am vulnerable but he really makes me feel secured whenever he holds me near him.

"Don't think that I am Mr. Perfect. I also had my share of being an ass. I had plenty of failed relationships and flings. But at the end of the day I ask myself until when shall I play. When we bumped into each other at the bookstore I was in a hurry then because my girlfriend called me telling me that she is pregnant. I got worried. I so wanted to get your name and number. Your eyes, how I love the look of them. But I told myself that it was wrong at that time because I have to attend to my worry some girlfriend; and if the universe will give me another chance, I will search for your beautiful eyes and look at them for the rest of my life."

"What happened to your baby?" I asked still hugging him.

He pulled away. "Well, I learned that the baby isn't mine. I thought it was my chance to get into something serious. The end of the game for me. But it turned out that the game is on me. I was shattered. But to be honest was also relieved. Not that if the baby was mine I would not give my name. Of course, I would."

I became a bit nervous. This might be the rebound I was saying. Same story. Me having a baby and him owning my baby in place of his ex-girlfriend's baby, whom he expected to be his.

"Oh," I muttered.

He held both my hands. And as if reading my mind said, "Don't think that I will use you and your baby for revenge. I am so done with that girl. I liked her and all but there was something about her that made me unsure of our so-called relationship. She is with me all the time but I always felt the distance. I want to start anew."

"But to be with me and my baby, it isn't really starting anew. It's more of continuing something that was started by someone else."

He shook his head. "For me, it would be starting my life. Real life; away from the pretensions, the games, the bullshit and all that. With you I feel so real. No need to be distant. I could go on talking all day without thinking that you might judge me or something like that. No make believes. No making impressions. I could just look at your eyes and smile forever. And enjoy kisses like the one earlier."

I took a deep breath. I still could not believe what is happening now. Baby, please let me know if you want Calix to be your father. Because I am beginning to feel that it would not be bad if he would be my husband. No matter how I try to figure out if his words are just sugar-coated I end up being defeated by the sincerity in his beautiful brown eyes.

"Please stop thinking first. You make me nervous. I am quite jealous that you are probably thinking of Zeke, the biological father of OUR baby. Babe, I love you. Please let me show you. Make me a part of your life. Yes, I met you only a few days ago but those days are more than enough for me to really feel that I love you already."

Is it really possible? Well, I guess so because since day one my heart has not stopped beating wildly for Calix. Without thinking twice, I leaned closer to him and kissed him on the lips. Nothing wrong with giving him the kiss he enjoyed earlier. He must get used to this kiss because I will never get tired giving him. He hugged me tightly as he kissed back passionately.