SWITCH!

Diary of a loser

Lighting up my third cigarette, I came across this really dark thing on the web, a website asking for entries for this whole new shiny show.. A TOTAL FLOP!

But then there's a figure, a huge TWO CRORES! Enough to afford next ten years of my life with a weekly pay in lacs even if you didn't win.

'Girl you gotta go for this', I said to myself ending up with my fourth and realizing the bankruptcy I have been a victim of since three years of my modelling career, also when you know you need money to satisfy your urges. Auditions and hours of inquiry sessions, ugh.. face it and get it Arianna, it's simple, you could control for a week or two maybe when it's settling your monumentally disappointed career! Yes I am a loser, a druggie, I have served in hotels and done bad things, self respect was something I left long behind taking this turn and I gotta fix this! 

Basically, I am an Indo-Candian and I know a little English.. ugh! Really? Is that gonna be my portfolio? They'll kick it out as they see it!

All the adventure, the luxuries I dreamed of since childhood, all the struggle to fit into the high class from the low middle class orphan life! 

Yes my parents died when I was 7, in a car accident I don't even remember how! Mean huh? They were mean too! They fought like cats and dogs when alive, thousands of affairs, and who's to be accused?

Well since then I am a nobody, a traveler, not places.. orphanages, temples I have also begged for food. Not a very elegant girlhood, but I have managed to survive!

Not even a resident of.. nowhere?

But I don't regret a thing, not at all!

I just hate them, all of them! About boyfriends, a bad history starting from a carpenter to a hookup with a mid-age 33 year old when I was just or nearly his daughter's age. That's me.. Arianna!

Well I am blessed with a couple friends, just like me, sad, poor, but loyal. Just Rose a complete mess up who's now dating my ex, I don't care anyway! (smirks)