Just Say You Won't Let Go

Studio

When I got inside of the house, I changed into my feline black and gold muscle tee, drop crotch pants and my plaid shirt tied around my waist. I left my hair down wavy and added a little eye liner.

I waited a little before going to the studio. I just needed time to think.

Can things ever go back to the way they used to be?

I went searching for uncle Scott because I need a ride to the studio. I found him in his office.

"Hey uncle Scott. I was going to meet Justin at the studio, can you take me.?"

"Can't you take yourself?" he said smiling.

"Your going to let me drive one of your cars?!" I screamed.

"No. I'm going to let you drive your car." he smirked.

"No way" I said in disbelief.

"Yes! it's in the garage. The one on the far right. In matte black"

"I can't believe this! Thank you so much!" I hugged him.

I went to the garage and found my car. It was an Audi r8 spider in the color matte black. It was absolutely perfect. I got in and called justin.

"Hello" Justin said.

"Hey it's Em. What's the address to the studio?"

"Scott should know it." Justin laughed.

"Yeah well I'm driving myself." I said while cheesing.

"Ohhh okay then I'm guessing someone just got a new car." Justin smiled " its 6245 Santa Monica Blvd, Los Angeles, CA 90038"

"Thanks j see you soon" we ended the call.

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I pulled up to the studio to see Justin outside waiting for me with his hoodie up and sunglasses on. I parked and got out my new car.

"Nice disguise" I laughed

"Can't risk being seen. Paps are crazy." He smiled. "Wow. This car is sick. You know I taught Scott every thing he knows when it comes to taste." Justin admired.

"Oh really. That's explains how both of you don't have girlfriends." I laughed but Justin's face was serious.

"Actually --"

"BABY!" I turned to see a girl jump on Justin. I just froze.

"Hey beautiful" Justin said as he took off his hoodie and sunglasses. "Lex this is Emerson, Em this is my girlfriend lex"

"Hi it's really nice to meet you" I attempted to fake a smile.

"Yeah you too. Justin told me about you." She brushed me off. "Justin you said she wasn't pretty you liar she's gorgeous." She smiled. "Emerson you're so pretty" she complimented. "We should go inside. It's so hot out" she walked in the building.

"So much for not wanted to be seen." I said. "I got to go. I'll see you around."

"Wait. Em I'm sorry about Lex she's gets jealous. Please don't go I want you here." He pleaded.

"You told her you thought I wasn't pretty? If you're going to insult me Justin, maybe you should have your girlfriend keep it to herself. It might seem like I'm over reacting but you straight up lied to me last night. You should have told me the reason we couldn't go to the party together was because you had a girlfriend. What happened to the old Justin. The one I could stand to be around. The one who didn't keep secrets. Who was straight up honest with me. When you find him come talk to me. But until then forget my face. Forget my voice and you can sure as hell lose my number." I screamed.

I walked to my car and drove off. I just drove. I didn't know where I was going but I just couldn't stop. Old memories were flooding my brain. My mom and my dad. What was he doing now? does my mom check up on me? does she like who I've become? I couldn't stop crying. I just wanted all the emotions to end. I couldn't take it anymore. I pulled over and took the key out of the ignition. I grabbed my purse and frantically looked for my blade. My mind kept telling me, no stop! what are you doing! But I needed it. I needed my mind and my body to know how much I hated myself.

After I was done scarring my wrist. I just wanted to go home and forget this day happened. I threw some bracelets on and drove home. I got out of the car and walked into my house to see Justin and uncle Scott having a serious discussion.

"Where the hell have you been! I've been worried sick. You tell me your going to the studio with Justin and he comes here looking for you saying you left upset! you can't do things like this! I didn't know where you were!" Uncle Scott screamed.

"I'm sorry. I'm just tired and want to go to bed." I calmly spoke and tried walking to my room.

"That's it? Your not going to explain yourself.?" uncle Scott asked sounding disappointed.

"Not tonight. And if anything, not with him here. He isn't family. He isn't a friend of mine. I don't understand why he's even concerned." I spoke "Justin didn't I tell you to forget my voice,my face, and my number. What part didn't you get.?" I said in utter exhaustion.

"I - I'm sorry Em but I -" I cut Justin off

"I honestly don't want to hear another lie or excuse Im tired. It's been a long day." I said to Justin. "Uncle Scott please"

"Alright. Go to bed I love you." He grabbed me to hug me.

"I love you too" I spoke. I went to unwrap my hands from around uncle Scott and every last bracelet fell off. He immediately grabbed my wrist and looked at me with straight anger.

"What the hell is this!" Uncle Scott screamed. All I could do is cry. And cry. Justin looked scared. Uncle Scott grabbed water and a rag and scrubbed my arms  it revealed scars up and down both of my arms. Uncle Scott looked defeated. He just stared in astonishment. 

"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I just kept repeating how sorry I was

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