wings

"I only have 4 months left." I murmured and look up, stargazing like the cosmos was there for me, the sky that's pitch black, but seems to be shinning for me. Void to seem to be welcoming me, comforting me with the cold breeze and a comforting sound coming from its natural sound. It's relaxing and I want to take a short, a very short break to relax since I'm busy.

It sounds like a long time, but in reality, it feels like hours maybe even minutes! Albeit, the time that I have left is drowning and pulling me to the depth of the ocean. It's suffocating me that it bothers me every moment. The fatal of the feelings that's slowly killing me, giving me the torturous way of letting me be in peace. But that will never happen, maybe the torture—there's a huge possibility but peace? I don't think so.

I used to have peace and as if peace was my best companion but things starts to depart letting me fall apart pieces by pieces like a sand—tinier than that. Maybe a mineral coming from sedimentary rocks. The pieces of the rock itself, smaller than that. Those tiny bits are the tiny bits of those tiny bits.

"Levruiv, if you can just find someone, then everything will be back to its rightful place." I muttered frustrated. I stand up, fixing myself and let the moon guide me the way back to home. The stars accompanied me as if we were friends for a very, very long time. That seems to be forever but, "Forever is such a long time." I sigh. And I could be waiting more than forevermore.

Staring at the starry night sky with twinkling billion stars and the lustrous moon giving me the happiness, I started to see visions. Seeing a girl crying and asking for help. I couldn't stand the pain and all I know is that the images stopped and when my gaze finally came, I saw someone standing in front of me, watching me lose my balance and letting me drift to sleep.

I can feel that someone's touching me, but I don't have the strength to open my eyes. I slowly move my hands, and intertwined it with someone. I had no idea who's that person but I could tell that the warmth of that person comforts me. It gives me the relaxation that I've been seeking for months. The stress that I carried minimizes it that calms every part of me.

"Open your eyes." Her voice sounds like the sounds of the nature. Calming and smoothening. It seems phenomenal for my case, but this was the best way to describe it. I can't even say the exact words for it. It renders me speechless. She feels like a part of the celestial body giving me hope in every hopeless region within me.

I tried to speak but words without sounds escape from my mouth. It was perplexing, albeit it seems undeniably undeniable. I got to the part of my certain conclusion of this scene that she might be the one that I've been looking. The excitement fills me making her tilt her head in confusion giving me the way to smile at her for being cute.

"How are you?" Her voice calms me. I nodded and gave her a smile. "I was following you since you seem to act like a drunk person and I got worried but then you screamed and I look at you." She chuckles, "At first, I thought you were just an insane person but when you faced me with that horrified face, I knew from that very moment, you really need my help." She smiles and glances down making me follow her gaze. Our fingers are still intertwined and yet she didn't resist to pull her hand away from me. Despite that I am awake now.

We talked and talked together like we are old friends. But there was something weird about everything. Including her. Every time I look at her, I have this feeling that I can't describe. It was confusing me but there another part of me saying that girl is the one that I've been looking for. The human who will save me from this drastically punishment from above.

We've been friends for more than a month. It's good, but the bad news about it is that, my lifespan decreases by One month and I'm not happy about it. I might hurt her for leaving her, but as a friend.