The Ultimate Tale of Unrequited Love • gibbsray

Prolog

Apa?

Favourite things that I like about Gibbs?

Banyak. Tak terkira.

Let's start with things he does that turns me on.

First, aku suka tengok rambut Gibbs basah. Lagi-lagi time lepas habis mandi. Tak kisahlah mandi kat toilet ke, sungai ke, laut ke... tiap kali aku ada peluang untuk tengok pemandangan indah tu depan mata aku, aku takkan sia-siakan.

Second, bila dia senyum. Senyum dia is different than other people. Probably because it makes me feel like the happiest person when he smiles. Senyuman dia sumpah genuine and beautiful nak mati.

Lagi-lagi bila senyuman tu untuk aku.

Third, bila Gibbs sentuh aku. Tak kisah kat mana-mana bahagian badan. Tapi yang pasti adrenaline rush tu mesti ada tiap kali dia pegang aku, sentuh aku, walaupun tak bersentuh kulit. Aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku senang gersang bila Gibbs sentuh aku. Probably because he's the only person that I admire the most?

No, he actually is.

And this is the most clichè story you will ever heard.

Tak perlu baca kalau kau homophobic. Tak perlu baca kalau kau rasa perasaan aku terhadap Gibbs cuma suatu kekeliruan. Tak perlu baca kalau kau rasa aku tak layak untuk menyimpan rasa sayang terhadap Gibbs.

Itulah hakikatnya.

Aku sayang Gibbs.

Or maybe even more than just sayang?

—

3rd December 2017

Proud is an understatement.

I read Gantung about two years ago. Not knowing that I would come back and read it again because of the sequel and the upcoming series.

I actually didn't properly read and understand how the plot worked, how the characters were actually like. I was completely dumb for not reading it properly and imagining it inside my head.

It's 2017 now and I'm finally returned after more than two years leaving the story. And guess what? I am head over heels for Ray now. Last time, Gibbs got me. But now, it's Ray's turn.

I freaked out when I found out that Randy was casted for Gantung to play Gibbs. The hot and the leader of the Musketeers. Also the one who created the Musketeer Code. No all for one, just one for all. I've been his stan for seven years and to accept the fact that he will be Gibbs for the series truly makes me the happiest. Who would expect that your favourite Indonesian celebrity crush would be your favourite fiction novel character in a tv series.

My life has always been full of coincidences.

For Ray, Ikmal Amry got the cast. Dude, he's the hottest Malay guy I've ever seen. My recent hearthrob. My one and only baby. I can't wait for Am to get his recognition in the entertainment industry and I can see bigger future awaits him. I know he'll make me proud.

Ray's character is so much alike Am. i don't know him personally but if you actually see and watch how Am's characteristics match well with Ray's. Except for his sexuality. Ray is a silent kid. He prefers being himself and artistic. He wants to pursue his dream to becoming a successful director in the film industry. I genuinely think that Am would fit the character. He can play the character well if he gets to do it until the end of the story. It wouldn't be wrong if you're imagining him as Ray. But don't take it so seriously because Gantung will always be a fiction. Everything about Fixi novels is unreal.

I cried and laughed when I was reading Gantung. The books are so well written and amazing. Nadia Khan is truly a masterpiece herself. We should praise her for writing explosive stories that catch people's heart to read and read it all over again.

For me, it was truly a satsifying moment to write this story. You know why? Because I think it's unfair for Ray. He couldn't be able to express his feelings towards Gibbs. He couldn't tell Gibbs how much he loves him. He couldn't live his life like normal people. He is suffering.

So because of that, I decided to make my own plot that tells a story of Ray and Gibbs' past relationship. I wanted to create the atmosphere where Ray and Gibbs were once an ultimate ship that is almost sailing. But don't worry, I won't wreck the original idea and plot from miss author. Gibbs, Troll and KJ are always remain dead. But for now, let's just enjoy how genuine and pure Ray and Gibbs' affection towards each other.

Love is love.