Love Should Never Hurt

Is This Love?

Hello, I'm Jessica. I live an isolated life with my fiancée, James. I should be at my mother's house picking

out my dream dress while my sisters and friends help decorate the chapel. Instead i'm at home trying to

keep my "Prince Charming" satisfied or else he'll "teach me a lesson"..

"Good morning sweetie." I said as I bake pancakes. "What kind of eggs would u like?"

"You will be my wife in the next 2 months and you still don't know how I like my eggs?? What kind of

wife are you? I want my eggs sunny side up.. and blueberry pancakes. He groaned.

As much as I wanted to pick up this hot pan of pancake batter and toss it at his frowning face, I knew that

I could never do that because he would most likely counter attack my throw, take off his "special belt",

and beat me butt naked like I was his child. So I immediately changed my tone. "I apologize honey and

it will never happen again. "

After I finished the breakfast, I decided to take a shower. This was the only place I could cry without him

hearing me. Just feeling the steamy hot water rush over my body actually made me feel free! Unfortunately,

that feeling only lasted for a few minutes. "Jessica hurry up in there!" I quickly dried off and went upstairs

to our second bathroom to freshen up.

I've always hated mirrors since James and I got together. What once was smooth Hershey brown skin, now

is as black as the top outside of an Oreo and blue as the Pacific Ocean! He always knew how to put me down.

But now it really affected me because I knew deep inside it was true. I applied a ton of cocoa colored

foundation and slipped on my favorite pink poka dotted dress. I then, went to ask for his opinion.

"Baby do I look g-..." He interrupted me. "Were you seriously going to ask me if you looked good?!" He laughed

hysterically. "Go put some meat on those bony legs!" I was done. He has worked my nerves all morning.

"If I am so pitiful then why don't you just find some other woman to marry?!!" I immediately regretted saying

that when I felt a pressure on my stomach. I fell to the ground. "I want you!" He then dragged me to the

balcony. "NO! NO! Please don't push me down!!" I yelled and cried with all my might. "Don't worry Hun, I

will never hurt you unless you leave me.. Or think your you will.." I ran to the corner of the room. He stormed out of the

house. Something has got to change. I need help...

He's gone. Should I take this chance and leave? But I have no where else to go! My family is 3 states away, and I have

no friends.. James told me they hated me. Without him I have nothing! He has allowed me to live in this beautiful

house, and provided me lovely clothes. But in order to show my grate fullness, I must obey his every command

without any form of disrespect or I will get beat. If I show no pain while I am receiving my "punishment",

he will upgrade from a shoe to a belt to a cord. Their is no where I can go without him finding me!